𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑ᵃʳⁱᵃⁿᵃ ᵍʳᵃⁿᵈᵉ

twenty

twenty - last months
(also, just wanted to say hello to everyone!! thanks baby (u know who u are ;))

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july 7

   "fuck, ariana. i don't know what you want me to do?! i can't be at two places at once and neither can you! it's not going to work." y/n's voice broke as she trailed off.

   ariana wiped her eyes and groaned, "you don't fucking know that, y/n! we can do it, i know we can." ariana sobbed. it was if she was trying to convince herself more than y/n.

   y/n threw her head back and ran her hands over her face, sniffing. "we both know that's not true, ari." she whispered and sat down on the couch feeling defeated.

   ariana's lip quivered and she slowly walked over to sit next to her girlfriend. "i just—i don't wanna lose you." she whispered, more tears falling down her cheeks.

   y/n glanced at her with glossy eyes. "i know, baby." she grabbed her hand and held it tightly, bringing their hands to her mouth to kiss ariana's knuckles. "c'mere."

   ariana immediately swung her leg over y/n's thighs and straddled her like she always did. they hugged each other tightly and y/n kissed the side of ariana's head.

   in a few months, the day they began talking would have been a year ago. ariana cried at the fact that they wouldn't even last until then.

y/n pulled away from the hug and pecked ariana's lips. her hands gripped her cheeks tightly and she stared into her eyes. "how about we don't think about it anymore, yeah? we just have fun the rest of this summer and we'll remember that when we—when we have to go." she spoke sadly and ariana's eyes were still overflowing with tears.

but, she still nodded. "okay. i love you so much." she sobbed.

y/n pulled ariana into her again and rubbed her back. "i love you too."

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august 12

"justin, you just burned my fucking marshmallow." zayn stared at his friend, his eyes sharp. justin blushed and held out the stick with the burnt marshmallow on it before smiling awkwardly.

"sorry." he whispered. the boys' friends around them giggled, cuddling into either their friends or lovers. y/n held onto ariana tightly, her mind racing with thoughts of having to leave her soon.

her tattooed hands stroked her girlfriends body, making ariana sigh. she pulled herself up further on y/n's body and wrapped the blanket tight around them, resting her forehead in her neck.

y/n closed her eyes briefly and kissed ariana's head, letting her hands slide under her shirt. "i love you," y/n whispered so no one else would hear.

ariana smiled sadly into her neck, whispering, "i love you too."

y/n then looked over at steve who sat next to them. "you okay?" he mouthed to her, noticing the solemn look on her face. y/n glanced down at her girlfriend sadly before looking to her best friend.

"no," she whispered, reaching out her hand for him to grab, which he did. leaning down to whisper in her ear, y/n continued to rub ariana's side with her free hand. "can you give us a minute, baby?"