My Future

Blood on my Hands

January 20, 2008

Draken and I had been together for quite some time now. I finally convinced him to move in with me. I was happy. But...I felt it slightly over the past year. What I didn't want to happen was happening. I was slowly beginning to lose myself. The only thing keeping me in check at this point was Draken. The Black Moon had taken its spot as one of the top gangs in Tokyo. There were four keeping everything balanced. I hadn't seen Mikey since that Christmas. I loved Draken. So much. But I didn't feel like I could talk to him about my dark impulses. As crazy as it sounded I believed the one person who could possibly understand me was Mikey. Draken had plans with Mitsuya and Pah that night so I was by myself. I walked out of the grocery store with a bag full of sodas and snacks.

I walked the road back to my house, wondering exactly how it all wound up like this. "Come on sweetie! I'll be real gentle I promise!" I froze in place. I looked in the alleyway and there stood a man over a naked girl. "Please don't! Just leave me  alone." The man chuckled and straddled the girl, pinning her arms above her head. I snapped. I ran up to the man and pulled him off the girl. "Run now!!" I screamed at her. She got up and scrambled out of the alleyway. The man slowly got up and I could tell he was pissed off. "Who the hell do you think you are, bitch?!?! I'll kill you!!" He lunged at me and I dodged. I punched him in the jaw then used the opportunity to deploy an axe kick. He groaned from the ground and I pushed him over on his stomach.

Memories flashed in my mind. James' hands all over my body. The image of my father dead in front of me. Emma laying on the sidewalk. I played it all in my mind as I straddled the man. "Your so fucking sick! Taking advantage of an innocent girl like that! Why?! Do you get some sick high from it?! Your pathetic!!" I began punching the man over and over in the face. Blood splayed all over the alleyway but I didn't care. I tuned out every sound other than my fist colliding with his face. He finally stopped trying to pull me off him. It was only then that I realized that he stopped breathing. I looked down at my blood covered hands. I staggered back and begun sobbing hysterically. My vision blurred and I faded into the darkness.

Sanzu POV (surprise!!)

Mikey sent me to fetch him some Dorayaki. Damn that boy. I didn't want to but I did it anyway. I was on my way back to the base when I heard it. The sound of a fist against flesh. I peeked over into the alleyway and my eyes widened in excitement. I watched as the girl beat the man to a pulp. It reminded me briefly of the way Mikey beat Kazutora back then. The man stopped fighting her back and she realized he was dead. The girl began sobbing and then passed out. I walked over to the girl and my eyes widened in recognition. "This is...Adriana." I mumbled out loud. Dorayaki in hand I lifted the girl up and tossed her over my shoulder. The boss was gonna want to know about this.

I walked back in the old abandoned house and everyone just started at the girl in my arms. "Boss." Mikey raised his head and his eyes widened. "Ari? Sanzu, why do you have her?" I laughed and laid her in front of him. "Found the girl in an alleyway covered in blood. Not sure what happened." I lied. I wanted to tell him but I'm sure this was something he would want to hear from her. "Take her upstairs, and grab me a rag and some water." I did as he asked. I laid the girl on the mattress and fetched the boss a wash rag and some water. "Leave us, Sanzu." I did as he said and closed the door behind me.

Adriana POV

I woke to the feeling of warm water on my skin. 'Wait... what?' I slowly opened my eyes and nearly jumped out of my skin. "M...Mikey?" He took my hands in his and began cleaning them. "Why am I here?" Without looking at me he responded. "Sanzu found you and brought you here." Then I remembered. The girl, the man, my hands covered in blood. I pulled my hands away from Mikey and brought them to my face.  Tears flowed freely and I covered my face with my now bruised hands. Mikey grabbed my wrists and pulled me into his chest. He wrapped one arm around my waist and the other threaded itself in my hair. "Ari... what happened?" I sobbed in his arms. And then I stopped. I felt my body turn cold. In that moment I felt nothing. "I killed him. I don't even know who he was. I just saw him forcing himself on some innocent girl and I lost it. I literally bashed his skull in. I...killed him." I scoffed and pulled away from Mikey. "I really am messed up aren't I?" I turned to Mikey and smiled. "I suppose it's done. It's hard to fight something you've given in to. Thank you for this but I need to go home." I went to get off the bed but was stopped when Mikey pinned me to the mattress. "Talk to Draken, Ari. He can't help you if you won't tell him. That was my problem. I tried to manage it all on my own. You don't have to. I'll handle this incident but please Ari. Talk to Draken. He loves you. Let him help you."

He pulled me up off of the bed and walked me outside. "Do you need a ride home?" I shook my head. "No. You've done enough. Thank you Mikey." I walked away from him without giving him a chance to respond. I walked home and quickly changed clothes. Luckily Draken wasn't home yet. I put on my nightgown and sat on the couch, waiting. The door opened and I turned to face my boyfriend. Tears stung my eyes when he flashed his signature smile. His smile then dropped when he saw the look in my eyes. "What's wrong Addie?" I patted the spot next to me on the couch. "Come here. I...I need to talk to you." Worried, he came over and sat next to me. I broke down and told him everything. I told him all about the dark urges that manifested inside of me and how they all stemmed from James. It was in this moment that I came to one conclusion. Ken Ryuguji was way too good for me.

He pulled me into his arms and held me close. "When you get to feeling like that Addie please remember, you are not alone. When you get to feeling like your not yourself anymore call me. I don't care where I am or what I'm doing I'll come. Ain't no way in hell I'm gonna let you deal with this on your own, okay?" He pulled back and kissed me softly. "I love you. Let me help you. Okay?" I nodded and kissed him. He picked me up and carried me to our room. He laid me down on the bed and laid next to me. He pulled me close and it was his even breathing and heartbeat that served as my lullaby that night.