Rui and Enmu's Life With the Upper Moons (but mostly Rui's)

Twinges of Jealousy

Dear journal entry,

It was a slow day for it had been a few weeks now since I saw the fireworks with Akaza-san. I was mostly playing Cat's Cradle, like I usually do when I'm bored, when Enmu opened the door and started poking my cheek. He then told me that Daki-san and Gyutaro-san invited the two of us to a spa day. I had nothing else to do so I agreed and follow him to their room.

Daki-san seemed very happy to see us when we arrived. She grabbed my arm and dragged me to a chair that was very spinny. I liked that chair. Enmu also sat down on one of the spinny chairs. Well, I say he sat, but really, he just stood on one leg and spun the chair while Gyutaro-san was trying to get him down. Enmu was just being Enmu I guess.

Daki-san then explained what we were going to do for the spa day and that we were going to start with face masks and cucumbers. However, when she reached for the cucumbers, they were gone. Then, we had to go on a cucumber scavenger hunt because Daki-san wanted to make today perfect.

Half an hour had passed when I found Daki-san fighting Gyokko-san for whatever reason. Gyutaro-san was there too so I asked him what was going on. He said that Gyokko-san was the one who stole the cucumbers and that this wasn't the first time that he did this.

I asked Gyutaro-san why he wasn't helping Daki-san with the fight. He told me that his sister was an independent woman who doesn't need a man to solve all of her problems.

But then Daki-san called for his help and then he jumped into the fight.

I felt that pang again. The same pang when Daki-san and Gyutaro-san introduced themselves. I want what to have what they have. A genuine familiar bond.

I left to my room since I didn't see the point in staying there much longer. So now I'm here, in my room, wrapped up in a cocoon, writing this entry.

Is it wrong for me to feel these things? I know I'm a demon and that I really shouldn't go after these sorts of things, but I genuinely long for having a family of my own. Maybe I'll never get that happy ending, no matter how hard I try.

I'm going to take a nap now, today was exhausting.

-Rui, Lower Moon Five