"you're the one for me y/n." jj says.
uh oh.
i pull away instantly.
his smile grows.
"jj.." i start.
his smile- he looks so happy. i cant. i cant hurt him again like i did.
"im sorry jj-" i try to spit out.
"it's okay! no no, it's oka-" he's trying to make excuses but he knows it too.
"that was a mistake." i say.
his face drops.
"wha-" he cant even finish his words.
"im sorry." i whisper.
"y/n it's okay!" he shouts.
"no. it's not. i- i cant do this to you again." i whisper.
i shove past him, walking towards the boat.
"y/n.." jj whispers behind me.
i ignore him. i cant- i just cant do this to him again. he never deserved it, and he doesn't deserve it now.
i walk up to the dock and grab the keys from the ledge. i get in the boat and immediately start to drive away. i have to tell rafe. i cant do the same thing that i did to jj to him.
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as i drive up to the cameron's house, a wave of shame and sickness hits me. i cant do this. no- i have to do this. no no no. i'm doing it.
i get out of the boat and start to walk down the very long ramp. as i almost hit the grass, i turn around. i cant do it. no i have to. i turn back around and walk up to the back patio. just as i'm about to turn back around to leave..
"y/n?" a little voice says.
i turn around. wheezie.
"wheezie! oh uh.. hi!" i shout.
she laughs, a bitchy look on her face.
"rafe you have a guest!!" she shouts.
WHY WOULD SHE DO THAT?! omg i'm in deep shi-
rafe turns around the corner.
"y/n? what are you-"
"nothing. i'm not supposed to be here.. i'm- i'm sorry." i say, darting towards the other way.
tears start to fill my eyes.
"wheezie what did you say to her?" he whispers behind my back.
"nothing?" she whispers back.
"y/n! wait y/n!" he shouts.
i ignore him, tears start to stream down my cheeks. how could i ever cheat on him?
"y/n please-"
his voice turns to pain. i turn around, making eye contact with him, my face red and full of shame.
"y/n what-"
"rafe i cant." i say.
his face drops.
"you cant? you cant- you cant what?" he asks.
"i'm sorry- i- i messed up. i'm sorry-" i cant spit it out, my palms hit my face, covering the tears.
he grabs my wrist, pulling my hand away from my face.
"what do you mean, you messed up?" he asks, anger approaching his voice.
"rafe.." i start.
his face turns to anger.
"no. no you didn't." he says, bud grip becoming tighter.
his face is turning red.
"rafe i didn't- i'm sorry. i just- i don't know."
i feel like i'm being crushed.
"i love you y/n. why would you-"
"rafe- please." i say.
he lets go of my wrists.
"rafe?" i ask.
he looks at me and pulls me into a tight hug.
"i'm sorry." i whisper, i cant push out words.
he pulls away and starts to bury his face into my chest, soft sobs coming from his mouth.
i run my fingers through his hair, trying to hold onto the big for as long as i can.
"rafe i'm sorry." i say, still crying.
his pain hurts.
"don't do it again- please just- don't do it again?" he sobs into my chest.
he looks up at me, his face full of hope.
"never again." i whisper to him, faintly nodding.
he cups his hands on my cheeks and pulls me into a kiss.
he pulls away as my phone dings.
i pull it out.
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mr. maybank
"y/n please talk to me."
"what did i do?"
"y/n come on."
"don't be like this."
"please talk to me."
kie🐚
"y/n are you fucking serious?"
"how could you?"
"don't talk to me ever again."
jombie
"y/n tell me you didn't do it.."
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"shit.." i whisper to myself.
i look at him, he's wiping his tears away.
"hey isn't that one party tonight?" i ask, trying to brighten the mood.
rafe sniffles.
"uhh yeah.. the uhh.. the obx breaker." he replies.
(yeah sorry i made that up lmao)
"do you wanna go?" i ask.
"what about our secret relationship?" he asks.
"man.. i guess you'll have to stick to fucking me in the bathroom." i say, smirking.
a smirk comes to his face.
"the more, the better." he says.
i pull him into another kiss.
"i'm really, really sorry rafe." i say against his lips.
he hugs me again.
"i know." he says.
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we drive up to the party. rafe gets out before me, i get out a little bit after. we still wanna stick to our secret. i start to walk towards the coolers to find a drink.
"y/n?" i hear behind my back.
i turn around, one of the people i never wanna see, standing there.
"hi topper." i say.
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Romancehe was a kook. they were a pogue. they were supposed to be in love with jj, but they let rafe under their skin. TW - there will be guns, blood, violence, curse words, inappropriate behaviours - i plan to put out a chapter everyday. life is starting...
