We big brain

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Ok so I initially wanted to rant abt something but like MY SATAN X JESUS FIC IS ALMOST SURPASSING THIS BOOK ON READS!!! If it does surpass it (which I'm pretty sure it's soon) that will be the book with the most reads on this account. That's pretty cool but very concerning too xdxd. Anyway back to what I was gonna say

So I finally saw Noah here in school yesterday. It went rlly weird but it's understandable since I had some problems some days ago and I had informed my friends I wanted to be alone for a bit. And so Noah respected it yesterday sinc I still hadn't told anyone I was ok with talking now. So yeah en and Noah didn't talk much yesterday at school but then we talked and thanks to him I felt better, get yourself a best friend like him deadass. 

Anyway today I'm pretty calm and happy. I feel so much better. But like idk what happened but in the morning my nose started bleeding. Like all of a sudden. At first I thought I had a runny nose again but when I took my mask off to clean the "snot" I saw blood on the tissue and I was like "lmao what". But yeah other than that I'm literally so relaxed like I've never felt this relaxed and not in edge in school before. I guess I had some pretty good coffee this morning xd

Anyway I'm gonna die bc the trigonometry teacher came in and told us that we had homework and like bestie THAT HOMEWORK WAS SUPPOSED YO BE FIR TOMORROW NOW TODAY WAT. and they are like 18 DAMN PAGES AND I AM MISSING A LOT OF PROBLEMS. Like listen I could totally ask my friends for the answers bc yes, but I need for Spanish to end and then I'll ask bc I can't ask in class cuz then they will take it away or sum idk. 

Anyway yesterday I had art class and anted to cry so bad  bc I realized that I deadass can't do abstract art. Like bestie I just can't. Like I can do realism, cartoon, anatomy, panting, shading EVERYTHING except abstract art. Like I'm pretty sure that's supposed to be easier than fuckin realism and anatomy. I deserve to go to jail goodbye

Anyway yesterday we started putting up Christmas stuff in my house. I low key wanted to cry cuz ya girl can't wait for Christmas. Like some people may think it's weird that an agnostic-atheist satanist celebrates Christmas. And here's the thing, I don't celebrate it because of Jesus and whatnot, I don't believe in the guy, I celebrate it because it's a time where I spend so much time with my family. Christmas has always brought me the happiest memories I have. Believe me the best memories of my childhood revolve around Christmas. So yeah, I celebrate it because of family, not because of the religion it belongs to (even thought it doesn't even belong to Christianity or Catholicism, it belongs to peganism but that's a more complex thing ok I won't get into that)

Also if anyone wants to attack me for being a satanist, read the definition of satanism we don't actually worship Satan (hell, we don't even believe the guy exists lmao surprise) so like lmao. Anyway bye sisters imma go cry

Also I think my nose started bleeding again ok bye