Y/N POV:
Why do I feel like this?
For the past week I've been really sad and i always feel lonely, when I'm not.
I went on the date, me and Cedric Are kind of thing now. He makes me laugh which is good but doesn't make me feel the way Mattheo did.
I really miss him, just even talking to him.
He doesn't smile anymore, neither do I really.
When I use to feel sad usually I look at him laughing with Draco and Blaise and it makes me smile and just makes the day 10 times better. But it's different now.
Every time I look at him now, I feel like crying.
I want to be with him, I want him. No one else.
I just wish I told him sooner. I wish I realised I loved him sooner.
Right now we could've be together, we could've been happy.
It's all my fault, everything is my fault. Cora was my fault and the argument with Mattheo was my fault,
Everyone who looks at me with fear and hatred, that's my fault.
I don't want people to hate me, I do want to be feared, but not hated.
I want a lot of things, but sometimes when you want something and you don't get it after getting everything you've ever wanted your whole life. It makes you feel empty and worthless.
Some may call me spoiled, I just call myself lucky. But luck wears off like a lot of other things.
I just wish my luck didn't wear off when I lost him. It was like losing everything
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My Slytherin boy
FanficY/N White-law is in her 5th year at Hogwarts, Y/N is out of this world gorgeous, funny, nice (sometimes), popular and everyone loves her but one in particular person loves her the most. Mattheo riddle has been in love with Y/N since second year and...
