My Slytherin boy

A week later

Well that went quick didn't it.
Already a week later and I'm getting ready for Lexi's funeral, how time flies when your upset.
We go back to Hogwarts tomorrow, I'm definitely not ready for that. Don't get me wrong I love Hogwarts and I miss everyone there, it's just I'm not exactly over her death yet, and everyone's been saying I'm not myself anymore.

They've been treating my different, being kinder and friendly, it's annoying. My family are usually caring and all that but never like this. They've become clingy, annoyingly observant and way too happy, it's really not like them .

The only person who hasn't changed, is Mattheo.
He's been by my side the whole time and he hasn't changed the way he acts around me.
He's the only person I've showed my true emotions to all week, because I feel safe and sort of normal around him, I feel safe around my family, of course I do, but he's different.

As I sit in my room waiting for Mattheo to get dressed, I wonder what todays going to be like, I've never really been to a funeral before so I don't know how these things go. I know for sure that it's going to be emotional and overwhelming for everyone, but I also think that it'll be nice and peaceful, the perfect send off for Lexi.

"Are you ready?" Mattheo asks breaking me out of my daze
"Ye I guess I am" I say Standing up
"Are you sure?" He asks
"Just a bit nervous but I'll get it over with" I say
"Can I give you some advice?" Mattheo asks
"Shoot"
"Okay, sit." He says
I do as he says and sit back down on my bed

"As you know I lost my mother, at her funeral I thought I wouldn't be able to do it, but I did. I did because I thought of all the good things about her and all the good memories, and thing we used to do together. I was alone at her funeral, I barely had anyone, but you have everyone. But most importantly, you have me." I start crying as he speaks, he grabs my face and makes me look at him, he rubs he is thumb over my cheek and wipes a lose tear away and says "I'll never leave you, you'll never be alone." And with that he kisses me, it was a sweet short kiss, but you could tell it was full of love and the truth.

"I just wish I said goodbye to her" I whisper
"think of today as your way of saying goodbye to her." He whispers back

"I love you theo, so much."
"I love you more, always have"
I look up and smile at him, a real smile which I hadn't done for a while. He smiles back and stand up and holds out his hand.
"Come on, they're all probably waiting" he says

I take his hand in mine and we head downstairs, to see all my family waiting in the living room, expect father and with that he walks in
"Come on then everyone the cars are waiting" he says

Time to really get through this, I can do this.