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Chapter 25 ~ You dump soldier

Reader's p.o.v.

The next morning I woke up first. Steve was still sleeping peacefully, like an angel and I was starring at him.
I don't want to hurt this man. Never!
Thinking I might have feelings for Bucky will not only hurt Steve, but Nat as well. She adores Bucky and Bucky is crazy for Nat.

After few seconds my phone rang and I picked it up quickly.
"Wanda?" I whispered.
"Good morning, y/n. Listen, we need to talk." I narrowed my eyes, because she sounded serious.
"Sure! Everything's alright?"
"Come to my room as soon as you can." She told me and hang up.
That was strange.
I felt a strong hand holding me and I smiled.
"I sorry I woke you up." I said to Steve.
"No, don't worry. I need to go for training with Bucky and Nat." He said, his voice still deep from sleep, his golden hair messy and his eyes still closed.
I kissed him tenderly and I hugged him, our feet tangled together.
"Who was on the phone?"
"Wanda. She wants me to find her. I'll see you at lunch, ok?" He nodded and he kissed my forehead.
"I love you!"
"I love you more, darling." I said and I started getting ready.

After a half an hour I went to Wanda's room with our breakfast.
She opened the door with a smile and she told me to come in.
"You sounded serious on the phone, what's the matter?" She looked at the floor.
"I'm sorry y/n but what I felt and what I saw is serious." She said and I looked at her. "Your thoughts about Bucky." She said and I widen my eyes. "You loved the kiss and you couldn't look at him straight in the eye."
Now it was my turn to look at the floor.
"Wanda it's not what it looks like. Yes, I thought that Bucky was handsome as hell last night and yes I enjoyed our kiss, more than I should, but I just let the mission get on my skin. Believe me, I feel guilty. I don't want to hurt Steve or Nat and I can assure you, Steve is the only man I want by my side." I said, tears were about to escape from my eyes.
"Oh, honey." She hugged me. "I don't judge you, it's just that I got scared when I realized it and there is something else." I looked at her. "Bucky, uh... he was... probably this mission got on his skin too, because his thoughts about you were intense." My heart skipped a bit. "I don't say this to you to be excited, but you need to discuss it, guys. It may be akward, but if you want to save your relationships you need to clear things out." She said and I nodded.
"You're right. I don't want to think what might happen if Nat and Steve find out. We won't tell anything to anyone. When the time will come I'll talk to Bucky." I look at Wanda. "I'm not a horrible person, Wanda. I would die for Steve and I would never hurt Nat."
"I know sweetie. The mission just influenced you, that's all." We smiled at each other and continued eating breakfast.

Before lunch I went to find Steve, so we go together in the kitchen and I saw him with Bucky talking about something. Probably they just took a shower because their hair were wet and I caught myself starring at the two men. I shook my head and I approached them.
"Hey guys!" I said, trying to sound calm.
"Hey, sweetheart." Steve said softly and he kissed me.
"Hey partner in crime." Bucky said and I giggled.
"Are you ready for lunch? Because I'm starving." I said. "Today Clint cooked and I'm curious."
"Oh, he's a great cooker, I promise." Steve said.
Till we arrive at the kitchen everything was good. I wasn't nervous around Bucky and I think Bucky was cool as well. It was all in my head from the beginning. I smiled and held Steve tighter.

"Where is Nat?" I asked them.
"She went with Tony to find Fury, but they'll be back soon." Bucky answered, but he wasn't looking at me.
Suddenly Steve's phone rang and looked at it.
"I need to answer this, excuse me." He smiled at us and kissed my forehead.
There was an akward silence between me and Bucky.
"I'll go in the kitchen and help Clint." I said and Bucky held my arm. I looked at it and then at him.
He looked around to make sure that no one was listening and turned his head to me.
"I need to confess something or else I'll go crazy." He said, looking at the floor.
My heart started beating faster because I could imagine what he was about to say.
"About last night, y/n, I... I was having thoughts that I shouldn't." He said and I widen my eyes.
"Bucky..." I whispered and he closed his eyes.
"I love Nat, y/n and I don't want to lose her, but last night..." he took a breath. "I've done so many missions and I was never affected before like I have last night. I can't stop thinking about our kiss and I feel guilty. Steve is my brother." He looked at me and I gulped.
"Listen, Bucky, the same thing happened to me. And I feel guilty too, I love Steve with my whole heart and I prefer to die than to see him suffer. I believe that the mission has influenced us because it was a tough one. I don't say you're not handsome or anything, but Steve is my other half and Nat is important to me. I say we forget about this and move on."
He was looking at the floor.
"You're right! Probably in few days we will get over it." We smiled at each other.
"I feel ashamed." I covered my face with my hands. "This shouldn't have crossed my mind, but please let's not talk about it never again." I said.
"We'll laugh with this one day. Now, let's go. Food will be ready."

"I swear a Frostgiant was I'm front of me, blocking my way and I didn't have anywhere to go." Thor said as he was telling us one of his famous stories.
"And?" I asked.
"Lady Sif came and save me and both of us killed the giants and escaped." He said with a smile.
"Aw Thor, this Lady Sif sounds important." I said and he smiled.
"Well, she is." We smiled at each other and Steve held my hand under the table.
"Oh tell the other one when you fought against Saturn." Bruce said excited.
"No, Lady y/n will probably get bored."
"Oh believe me! She loves stories. I say war stories to her all the time." Steve said with a chuckle.
"Well, y/n has never told us an interesting story." Tony said and I blushed.
"I don't have anything."
"You're a criminologist. I'm pretty sure you'll have something." Sam said.
"Not really, no. In my previous job my partner was terrible." I said.
"Why's that?" Vision asked me.
"He used to..."
"He?" Steve repeated and everyone laughed. I rolled my eyes.
"He was a jerk, actually. He used to annoy me all the time and..."
"We want to see him!" Nat said excited.
"Why? He was an unprofessional partner."
"I'm curious, too." Clint said with a smirk.
"Well, I don't have a photo of him, but his name is Peter Smith. He was helping me with--"
"We found him!" Wanda said with a smile.
I looked at Steve, who was looking at his glass of wine.
"Oh my! Y/n he is gorgeous." Nat said and Bucky cleared his throat. "I love you James."
"Indeed he is! Y/n you lucky woman!" Wanda said and Tony looked at Nat's phone.
"Well, he's not as handsome as me, but I gotta say maybe he was into you." Tony said and I gasped.
"Don't be ridiculous. The man was rude, annoying and he was insulting me all the time."
"Well, this is a way of a man to express his feelings for a woman." Bucky said.
I rolled my eyes.
"It was one of the reasons you left?" Steve suddenly asked.
"Yeah! I couldn't take it."
"Can I see him?" Steve asked Nat and she saw him a photo of Peter.
I gotta say he was handsome, tall and brunette with green eyes, but I've never thought of him that way.
"He's not that handsome, relax girls." Steve said. Nat and Wanda just looked at him in disbelief.
"Oh, come on man. Even I can say that this guy is charming." Sam said and I chuckled.
"Nothing special, really." Steve said. "The most important is that he is rude."
He turned to me. "You did well that you left."

Later me and Steve went to my room and take some rest.
"So, this Peter." He started and I looked at him. "Did you ever see him differently?"
"Like what?"
"You know..." he looked at his hands. "Have feelings for him." I smiled at him.
"No, never. Why do you ask?" He simply shook his head.
"Nothing. Just asking."
After few minutes Steve spoke again.
"And uh... do you still talk? With this... Peter?"
"Steve why are you asking me all these? If you want to know something ask me."
"Me? No, nothing." He paused for few seconds. "Did you spend a lot of time together?"
"Yes, unfortunately. We were doing the profiling together and we were all the time at the lab."
I smiled again at him.
"What?"
"I love it when you get jealous." I smirked and he scoffed.
"Who? Me? Please."
"It's ok to admit it, sweetheart."
"I'm not ok? I just found out something about you that I didn't know and I'm curious, that's all." He said, raising his voice a little.
"Come here, you idiot." I said and he approached me. I put both of my hands around his neck and kissed him. "I can't deny that he's handsome, but you see, I have a thing for blonde guys with blue eyes." I said with a smirk and he narrowed his eyes.
"Now I have to worry about Thor, too?" I looked at him.
"You kidding, right?" He looked at me. "I can't understand how a great leader like you can be such a dumb sometimes."
"Funny." I kissed him.
"I love you, Steven. Don't doubt that, ever. And if I make mistakes sometimes, forgive me, but no matter what I love you, soldier." He smiled and he kissed my hand.
"I'm glad that you and Bucky got along last night." He said and I widen my eyes. "I mean... after his bug change with the hair and the arm I was scared that he might charm you." He chuckled and looked at the floor.
Great! I felt more guilty. But I pushed away any doubt and I grabbed his hand.
"You dump soldier, I adore you and no one else. And this partner of mine, Peter, I don't want ever to hear about him again." He looked tenderly at me.
"Gosh, y/n. I love you." He kissed me. "What am gonna do with you?" He said and I smirked.
"Make love to me."
"Now?" He blushed and I laughed.
"Yes, soldier, now!" I kissed him passionately.