Shawmila Imagines

We Were Made To Break

Two weeks ago they were celebrating her dad's birthday in Mexico, thinking they were going to get married soon. Now they are not even talking to each other. What happened?

I guess it all started that day in Mexico, On day 1 we were there we had quiet with us and my dad and mom and my sister. It was my dad's birthday so we went to his favourite restaurant in Oxana.  We went to sleep, then in the morning, we woke up to people screaming "Shawn Camila We Love You" over and over again. We tried to go back to sleep but nothing was working. 

The entire day we were followed by a mob of people to the point where we booked flights home. While we were booking our flights Shawn said he was going to fly to Toronto, pick up Tarzan spend some time with his family then meet me in Miami. We get to the airport and we do our normal routine when we both go to different places. 

I get to Miami and wait for Shawn to let me know when he lands. 6 hours go by and I still don't have a text. My brain comes up with all of the worst situations possible. I start spam texting him asking if he is okay. After the 25th message, he responds with a Facetime call. I feel like I can breathe again. He says sorry and that he fell asleep, we talk for a little but something feels off. He says he has to go he has a doctor's appointment. 

We seem to be normal for the next few days, then Shawn comes to Miami for Halloween. Everything seems normal and I feel so happy. 

Then on November 5th Shawn sits me down and says "we need to talk". I sit down with him in the Pool House. Shawn says "You know I would never want to hurt you right?" I nod and look at him confused. He continues " Every time we are apart you start to distance yourself and you seem so sad. We spent a year and a half being together every day all day. Now that we are back working we are lucky if we get a full day without interruptions. I love you so much but it hurts to love from afar again, even though we are together it is like we are never actually together anymore". I look at him with a sad smile and say " I've been feeling the same way, I wanted to treasure whatever time we had left together" "I think we should break up, but I can't have you in my life" "best friends?" "Best Friends.". Shawn grabs most of his stuff and starts putting it in his suitcase.  We spend some last days together tell my parents then he heads back to Toronto.

For the next week, we talk every day and act just like we did before we dated. Then out of the blue, he stops texting or calling at all. Like no response or anything.

I text Aaliyah seeing if she knows what's going on and she says he is in New York so she doesn't know what's going on. Another week goes by and I get my first notification from him in a while. I open it and see it's a video. I press play.

The video opens with Shawn being in a hospital bed with what looks like a million wires attached to him. He starts talking, "Hey Mila, if you are seeing this that means I have died. I know, I know, why didn't I tell you, but I told you I didn't want to be your cause of pain. Remember when I told you I had a doctor's appointment, well when I was there they did some blood testing and found some issues, so they sent me in for more and more tests, where they discovered that I had stage 4 terminal cancer. 

Apparently, it started in the colon and spread to my stomach, bones and even got to my spinal cord. They told me there was not anything that they could do to help me, and gave me a month to live. I know you so much that If I told you, you would have sat by my side every second I was feeling anything and tried to make it better, even though I was a lost cause, you would have blamed yourself saying you didn't help enough or think you could have done something. There was nothing you could have done. My one wish was that you live your life and move on. I figured that if I gave you some time where we were not together then it wouldn't be so bad. I love you so much.