What if I fall in love with you more than I could ever imagine? More than I could ever take? More than anything in this world. I'm scared to feel love not so soon as I have been heartbroken. I am scared to love and not be reciprocated.
I have felt how to be rejected by the person you care for. And I don't know if I can still take more. My heart is tired. I am tired to be unwanted. Yes you love US but I know that I should know where my boundaries lie I don't want to end up like an insane psychopath. I'm falling so deep for you. Someone I know I can never have.
I just wish I could see you. Just once would be fine no it would be more than enough. Just looking at you always puts a smile on my face. My day ain't complete if you aren't there with me. You always manage to bring out something in me I never knew I had. I thought the last time I fell this hard was 4 years ago. And here I am now almost a month and a half moving on from my 4 year one sided love, having another one sided love.
I'm scared to the point that I lied to myself and to my friends. It scares me to think that I can't even continue my day without your presence.
Everything just seems so blur if I don't have you in my life. You are my shoulder by backbone everything that lifts me up. I just want to be selfish and call you mine. But I can't because you will never be mine. And I'm very much aware of that fact.
