Hi! I'm writing this for you. Yes, you! Hi Am! Do you remember me? I'm you but younger. I'm you but with less experience and more fears. I'm you but with doubts and despair. I'm you but lonely.
Am, I've always told myself that someday in life I'd be better. That I'd look back on the path that I took to get where I am and be content with what I have achieved.
Am, I've had so many blunders already and I wish these blunders didn't end up becoming a set back. I've done so many things to fail you. I have chosen other people before you. I have chosen my fears and doubts before you. I have betrayed you for others satisfaction and I'm sorry. I have had done so many things to make you feel less than what you really are. I have made you feel all these horrid emotions and have led you to something that I knew would hurt you.
I'm so so sorry Am. For not treating you right. For not giving value to yourself. I'm sorry for loathing you're existence and giving you up when you needed me the most. I've done so many things to jeopardize our future and I just wish I hadn't.
Am, I really don't know where to start. I really don't know where I want to start picking myself up because I feel like all my bits and pieces are all scattered.
Am, Do you forgive me? Do you you have it in your heart to understand the broken little you? Do you have it in your heart to finally accept that I am a part of who you are?
Am, Do I ever learn to love you for who you are?
I hope I do!
Am, you've always told yourself that one day when you get a family you'll always be present because you didn't have thy growing up. Do you have it now? Do you have that family now?
