HIS GIFT.

The Decision

As I lay in that room all by myself with the screen showing my baby I cried, how fate was twisted. I didn't know what to do? I had a wolf child inside me and not just a normal wolf, an Alpha wolf, would my body be able to handle the pain that it was causing me. I placed my hands on my tummy, if I was already 3 weeks along that means I was nearly in my second trimester. It's weird how wolf pregnancies work. The baby grows at a faster rate and I didn't know if my body could handle it. This was my baby, this way our baby that we had created. Why had I been blessed to carry a wolf pup when no other females could. My face scrunched up in confusion and realization hit me that all the signs were there. How did I not see it? I ate raw meat, the morning sickness because it was a wolf it only made it go faster.

I looked up hearing a noise and the doctor walked back into my little room, she had no emotions on her face "Whatever you decide Esme, it affects everybody." She said and started to clean the room. My stomach growled again and I laughed, by all this eating I was going to be massive if I decided to keep it. I got off the bed and smiled at her "I'll think about it doc." I said and she nodded at me.

Just before I left the room she told me I had 1 day to decide if I wanted to keep or get rid of the pup, my heart hurt thinking about getting rid of it. It was my gift from their god, why she decided to gift me I don't know. Maybe she was playing a game with me, maybe she wanted to see me suffer more but I highly doubt it. I walked my way towards the kitchen noticing all the humans were here preparing the plates, I walked in and heard a massive scream almost jumping out of my skin.

"ESME WALKER DO YOU KNOW HOW WORRIED I HAVE BEEN?" I heard Poppy shout from the right side of the kitchen. She held up the knife she was using for carving the meat and my tummy rumbled. I gave her a small smile and she put the knife down thank god and came over to my side giving me a big cuddle. "I thought you were dead," She whispered in my ear.

"Glad to have you back, Esme." I heard Melody say. "Tea is in 30 minuets why don't you cut your meat for the Alpha and Alpha Luna." I sighed back to work I thought as I walked over to my station. The smell of the meat made my stomach growl even more, I was starving but eating raw meat in front of these girls they would find me strange. I smiled and started to cut the meat so badly wanting to have a plate for myself but I knew my place, I must feed the Alpha and Alpha female before I can feed myself.

I finished carving the two plates when Beta George walked into the room, he looked at me then he sniffed his eyes going down towards my belly and confusion showing on his face. I knew he could tell apparently wolves could sense a pup in the oven, he walked over to me and I shook my head 'no' moving my eyes towards the girls. He didn't like that much - a petty human telling him what to do but he nodded his head, his eyes continuing to be on my stomach. The bell rang and I was so happy, the sooner I fed the Alpha and Alpha female the sooner I could eat myself because this baby was making me crave the meat.

I grabbed the two plates which were heavier than usual but I knew that was because I was in hospital for a week without food, just a drip keeping me from starvation. I lined up at the back and the Beta pulled me slightly to the side "Why can I sense you are pregnant?" He asked me, he pulled me quite roughly surly which would leave a mark on my upper arm. Fear washed over me I played it dumb - I didn't know if the Alpha wanted his pack to know. "Urm.. I don't know." I said and he looked at me confused.

Thank god the line had moved down and it was my turn to walk into the dining room, when I stepped out I heard the biggest slam of doors and growl I had heard.

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING?" The Alpha was seething with anger, his eyes on me. I gave him a confused look wondering what he meant, he quickly reached me and took the trays from my hands. His pack watched wondering why an Alpha had taken two plates off a human, "YOU DO NOT. I REPEAT DO NOT DO ANYTHING WHILE YOU ARE PREGNANT." This seemed to get everyone's attention, everybody looking at me and the Alpha.

The she wolves looked shocked at their Alpha confession. "She's pregnant?" A she wolf whispered, holding her own tummy. I felt the redness on my face as my face probably looked like a tomato. He guided me to the table sitting me down to his left Alpha Luna position on his right, she smiled at me giving me a small wave. The alpha stood at the table, his pack members looking at him confused even the humans were wondering and I didn't dare look at anyone but my own shoes.

"On the night of the mating, my wolf had found Esme hiding. He forced himself upon her." He started and I could see his pack sit up getting ready to understand and want more information. "We found out today that Esme is carrying my pup, your next in line Alpha." he finished and the she wolves gasped and the males growled looking at me. "If anyone has a problem with that, you can come see me." He said and growled at them all, they all bared their necks submitting to their alpha. He sat down handing Alpha Luna a plate and putting his down my stomach growling. He looked down at my stomach and frowned "Here Eat." He said handing me his plate and I could hear the gasps that an Alpha had just given a human his food. I ate the meat moaning at the taste and the alpha smiled, we finished the meal and I was rushed out of the room and back into the one I was placed in after what had happened.

I sighed sitting on the bed, Nixon coming to my side. "What's wrong, is it the baby?" He asked, placing a hand on my stomach. I looked at his concerned expression and in that moment it felt like a family, a fucked up family but I could feel his love for the pup growing inside of me. It's a pity he couldn't feel that love for me. "No, the baby is fine." I said and looked out the window seeing the moon light up the sky. It was a perfect night, not a cloud in the sky, the moon shining bright, "Alpha?" I asked and he growled.

"Nixon." he said and I looked at him confused. "My name is Nixon, call me that." He said and it felt strange why would he ask me to call him by his name.

"Nixon'' I said the name sounding foreign on my tongue I looked at him straight in the eye "I want to keep this baby." I started and I watched his eyes light up but then they were saddened and I knew exactly why.

"Esme if you decide to have this baby, there is a chance you might not survive?" He told me but I had already made my decision. If I was going to die there was no other way I would rather go than bringing somebody else into the world.

"Yes I'm sure."