Weather | Jaywon Fanfiction

Chapter 10

I can’t breathe already. Everything is suffocating me. Everything in this house is reminding me of him. When he wakes me up, cuddled with me, cook for me, go out with me, and do lots of things together.

I missed him so much. I missed Jay hyung so much.

Jungwon stood up from the floor of their room and went to Jay’s bed. He cried in there while hugging Jay’s pillow.

I’m so tired.

He opened the sliding window that is on his side a cold wind welcomed him. He looked at the sky with agony as he remembers his hyung again.

If I didn’t confessed at you, will everything be alright? If I kept my feelings, are you still alive? If we didn’t met, are things won’t be like this? I fucked up. I fucked up so hard.

I acted so though but I can’t handle it now. I’m so weak. I lost. I can’t have that fairytale-like romance anymore. Thank you for everything but I wanted to end it all now.

Jungwon went outside looking so pale, with dark circles under his eyes, a cut on his lips and just a pure lifeless body yet alive.

He reached where he wanted to go and stepped on the railings. He looked at his phone and sees his wallpaper that is Jay and him. It made him smile.

He looks up and let out a heavy breath. He then nods, “That’s right. The weather should be fine tonight. At least, I’ll die with a fine weather,” Jungwon whispered.

It's snowing.

He looked at his phone for the last time then closed his eyes. He can feel himself falling and he’s fine with that. After a seconds, a cold water welcomed his body.

He opened his eyes and he can’t see anything and all he can feel is coldness. His lips parted causing the water to have access in him. He can slowly feel the water eating him up inside.

Then he smiled wih a thought, “Jay hyung… Are story will always be the best.”

Memories flashes in front of him. From the day he was born, his firsts, his family and meeting his hyung. He smiled, he is happy.

My name is Yang Jungwon, a 17-year old student who is crazy in love with the person named Park Jay. I love you hyung. Maybe in another life, we’ll have our own happy ending.

He slowly closed his eyes and his heart stopped on beating. His system turned off and his pulse is nowhere to feel. Yang Jungwon is now gone.

“No warmth, no breath shall testify thou livest.”