People see what they should believe
But they really believe easily
Not everything they see are true
Some are just masks to hide the truth
People say I have an almost perfect life
They say they always see me smile
They notice that my face looks relaxed
And they see me as a problem free person
In a strangers eyes they see me beautiful
In my classmates perspectives they see me as someone who's smart
Some people envy me
But I cannot see what they see in me
Whenever I look infront of a mirror
I see myself, my own reflection
I wonder where did they see the beauty in me?
Because I only see nothing but a disappointment
Why am I blinded?
I know I am blinded with fear and anxieties
Blinded with anger and insecurities
But when would I see the good in me?
A beauty? No, I see myself as ugly
Smart? Never. I call myself dumb
A lovely daughter? Not ever! I'm a failure
A perfect life? No. Its a dissapointment
I'll never be that honest girl
I keep lying and hiding the truth
What I truly feel I always hide
So every night in my room I always cry
Honestly I don't want to see myself
Coz I'll only curse at it
I'll only hurt it
And will always end up in a useless apology.
I don't want this!
I feel like all my life I've been blindfolded
And up 'til now I'm scared
Scared of opening my eyes
I'm blinded, I always were
Help me please, I beg you
I don't want to end up hating myself forever
So save me please
