"What?" I ask sitting up and looking at him.
"Marry me," he says getting up and going over to his jeans.
"Don't do it," I tell him watching him pull out a ring from his pocket and comes over to my side of the bed kneeling in front of me.
"Sara I love you. I love you more than you can possible comprehend. My love for you is endless. The way you walk, the way your dress, the way you move, the sound of your voice... it's my favorite sound. I have never we loved anyone nearly as much as I love you. You make me laugh, you make me so fucking mad sometimes but I can't get enough of you," he says as he picks up my hand. "I love how our hands literally hit perfectly together," he explains as he laces our fingers to make the perfect match then looks back at me. "I love how warm your skin is and, how soft it is from head to toe. I love the way you kiss me, even a quick kiss to say goodbye, gives me goosebumps. I love when you hold me and the way you smell even after a long day of sweating. I love that you gave me a chance. More than one. I love that you believe in me. I love how headstrong you are... You're an amazing person, inside and out. Definitely to good for me. I don't deserve the time of day from you but you give me the world and I can't thank you enough. I love so much about you and I wouldn't change you for the world. Nothing. So," he smiles looking up at me, "Sara Nelson will you please marry me?"
"Harry," I say wiping tears out of my eyes. "I love you. I really do."
"No please don't do this," he shakes his head and stands up.
"Harry we're only 21."
"And?! I love you and I want to be with you!"
"You are with me! Why can't you just be happy with where we are now? Why do you have always take it a step further? I'm happy where we are. I'm happy just dating you," I explain to him.
"Well I'm not. I want to start a family with you."
"Why would you want that now? You're in the prime of your career. Do you honestly want a nagging wife and a baby holding you back?" I ask.
"Yes," he chuckles.
"You're not thinking straight," I shake my head and stand up putting on my jeans.
"Where are you going?" He asks defeated.
"We both need to think about this properly," I tell him putting on my shoes. "You're talking like a mad man."
"Me being in love makes me a mad man?"
"You being in love with me makes you a mad man!" I scream at him.
"Okay," he says looking down at his lap giving up this fight with me.
I gather my things in my bag and leave our room going to mine and Cori's.
"Hey. I wasn't expecting you back tonight," Cori says her and Niall looking up at me. Are they on a date? Pizza. Movie. Same bed. Shit I ruined probably their first date or hang out or whatever this is. "Sara what's wrong?"
"He asked me to marry him," I say sitting on the bed staring at the wall.
"And that's my sign to leave. I'll text you later," Niall says as he gets out of bed and leaves saying goodbye.
"Okay. We need everyone else here. I'm gonna go get them. Are you gonna be okay?" She asks as she gets up sliding her slippers on and I just nod.
She leaves the room and I lay back in bed. Marriage. I knew he wanted it. I just didn't think he wanted it now. I thought I could make him fall out of love with by that time. He doesn't deserve this kind of fucked up shit I'm his life. It's honestly just another reason for people to hate him and he seems perfectly fine with it. But the fact that he already had the ring and it looked my size. I can't do this. I can't marry him.
"What's going on?" Kelly says as I sit up and a train comes in after her; Kelsey, Stephy, Lou, Lottie and Cori.
"He wants to get married," I simply say.
"Okay. Well I think every guy wants to get married eventually," Lou says.
"Now. He wants it now. He has a ring and everything," I tell them and no one says anything for awhile.
"What did the ring look like?" Stephy asks after a few minutes of silence and everyone looks at her like she started the Black Plague but I can't help but laugh.
"It was oval. Huge too. With diamonds around it and diamonds around the band," I explain the ring I saw in Harry's hand.
"And you said no?" Kelsey asks.
"I just... I don't understand why he can't just be happy right now. Why does he always have to go a step further? Why did he have to fall in love with me?" I sigh.
"Because you're the girl of his dreams," Lottie says. "You don't see it but the way he looks at you, the way he talks about you. You're his everything and I don't think anyone will ever compare to you."
"I can't marry him," I start to cry. "I can't put my problems on him. He doesn't deserve this," I cry as I stand up and leave the room.
I need to get out of here or just away from everyone. I need to be alone. I leave the hotel and walk along a path behind the hotel through a garden. The flowers being lighten up by the moon calms me a little. The path lead me to a little pond with a wiping willow tree. My favorite. There's just something about them that calms me down. I sit under the tree and lean back against the trunk listening to the frogs crock and splashed in the water from the fish.
Marriage. Harry. I don't know what to do. I love him. He's everything that I've ever wanted but he moves to fast. He expects to much from me and I'm not sure I can't give that to him. I know he thinks that it will help me but I don't think it will. How will making me a housewife help me? Staying home all day. Cleaning and doing laundry. I don't even like cleaning. It's not like I can go out and get a respected job because I didn't go to college. Maybe that's what will make me happy. Going to college and figuring out my own life before I start a life with someone else. But I love him and I don't think there's anyway to get around the whole marriage thing. I need to leave. Just leave without telling him. Only thing I can do.
I stand up and make my way back to the hotel go get my things. The good thing is we're only in New York so I can just take a bus home and it'll be cheaper. I come into the room and no ones in there. They probably all went back to their rooms and Cori is probably with Niall figuring a fucked up their date. Go me. I pack up the rest of my stuff and write Harry a note before leaving the hotel going to the bus stop.
