𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒍 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒎𝒚 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒆 [ᴋᴀᴡᴏsʜɪɴ]

①① - ᴡʜᴏ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ᴀɴ ᴀɴɢʟᴇ ɴᴇᴇᴅᴇᴅ sᴀᴠɪɴɢ

After we watched the sunrise together Shinji leaves again to talk to his dad.

It's now 12 pm and I'm waiting for the doctor to tell me more about my diagnosis.

It knocks on the door before it opens and Katsuragi comes in with food on her little medicine cart.

"Good morning Kaworu!" She says in her usual cheerful tone and hands me my plate with scrambled eggs and bacon.

"Thank you." I say as she goes to the window to open the blinds.

"Huh? The blinds are already open? Did I already visit you in the morning?"

I shake my head softly: "You forgot to close them last night."

The young nurse panicks: "I-I'm so sorry! I have many patients it can happen I forget someone I apologise deeply! Oh god I'm so clumsy..."

I take a short look at the now sad Katsuragi.

Normally I'd do anything to cheer her up and to tell her something positive.

Can I actually do that in my current state?

"Don't worry miss Katsuragi. I'm sure everyone knows you're trying your best and you alone shouldn't be responsible for too many patients."

With that I give her a soft smile or at least something of a smile.

She smiles back brightly and puts my plate next to me on the bed.

As she's about to leave I stop her.

"Miss Katsuragi? Would you mind staying here for at least a few minutes?"

She shakes her head a little before sitting down next to me on the bed.

With a simple "What's wrong?" she looks me in the eyes and gestures for me to speak up.

"Am I going to die?"

I ask with a short hesitation.

The doctor didn't tell me anything more ever since last time.

I don't know if the disease is curable or if the tests are even accurate.

"Kaworu... We don't know that. The nice doctor will tell you when they find something out. But for now we don't know anything. Please don't worry too much, okay?"

I nod shortly and look down at my plate.

With a little smile the nurse leaves and closes the door behind her heading to her other patients.

I wonder how Shinji is doing.

And I wonder how all of this will play out.

It's so funny. Everything happening at the moment is just so funny.

My life was perfect. It was amazing. The money, popularity, grades... I had everything yet I could never feel emotional pain.

Now here I am having a disease that makes me forget everything of that stuff.

But even if I forget I wouldn't care. I wouldn't care if I forgot about my parents and how loved I always was in schools even by the teachers.

I can forget everything. Everything but him.

I would rather die than forget Shinji.

Because even though I was always described as an angel and I thought I was the one who saved Shinji...

I didn't realize I was the one who was saved.

Drowning in emptiness and always seeing black and white until I met him and the whole world lit up in front of my eyes.

Ever since then I know him I've been looking forward to waking up every day because I know I would see him.

He chnaged my life and I changed his.

His life was horrible and now as soon as we met he suddenly has the courage to argue with his abusive father.

He's so strong yet so fragile and soft.

Still he's the true hero of this story.

The soon ending story of my life...

Shinji Ikari a brown haired boy who moved to this town a few months ago was the one who saved me from my daily life by being the love of my life.

Who thought an angel needed saving?

"I think we were destined to meet."

I say quietly as the door to my room opens and Shinji enters the room.

"Hm? Who are you talking to?"

I look at him with tears in my eyes and point at the plate in front of me.

"I can't really eat right now. Would you mind eating it for me?"

Shinji sits down next to me and grabs the plate and the fork out of my hand.

Putting some of the carrots on the fork he eats one and holds the fork with the other piece of the carrot in front of my face.

"I will now let you starve. I don't mind feeding you."

I smile and shake my head ready to say something but Shinji uses the opportunity to put the carrot in my mouth.

Laughing quietly I swallow the carrot and give Shinji a kiss.

"I'm going to the police tonight."

Shinji says to break the silence and looks down in shame.

I hug him tightly and kiss him on the cheek.

"Love, I'm so proud of you! I'm proud of everything you're doing right now. I love you so much you're doing so great."

He smiles softly and puts another carrot in my mouth.

"I had a fight with my dad and he hit me again. I said I will go to the police and he got mad asking who I will go to if I don't have any relatives. Then he accidentally mentioned my aunt who I didn't know about. Apparently my dad had a fight with her years ago and she lives in another city. I followed her on Facebook and we chatted for some time so now I have somewhere to go if I actually decide to report my dad to the police."

I look at Shinji's leg with his pants pulled up a little.

I look at the bruise and kiss it.

"Like that one time in the trampoline hall."

I whisper and lay down with Shinji on top of me.

As I feel my eyes close the door opens and the doctor walks in.

"Kaworu... we have some results."

I look up at him and so does Shinji both of us very curious on what the doctor might say.

The expression on his face isn't really good so I assume the news aren't either.

"We're sorry to say that we in fact diagnosed you with Childhood Dementia also known as Juvenile Dementia. Symptoms of this might include deafness, cognitive deterioration, memory loss, character changes and a high possibility of early death."

The doctor risks a short glance over to us just to look back down at his papers again.

I don't feel Shinji's hand anymore. I don't feel anything anymore. Now just for a second I want to stop the time and think about how to handle all of this.

It's just a possibility right? No 100% chance of dying?

I wouldn't mind actually.

But I don't want to leave Shinji alone...