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Dream

Eventually, we fell so deep with our emotions after you asked me to be your Science partner the next day.

You even apologize even it's my fault for saying those words to you...

I felt important since then, Rin... I felt important because of you ...

I prioritized you everyday until I... can't hold it anymore... I admitted what I truly feel on Christmas Day which you replied with an embraced and acceptance.

You clarified the reasons why you hang out with Tsumu more... It's simply because you're shy to ask anything to me personally at first.

I felt a relief.

So, Tsumu became the bridge that connect us. I truly am grateful to him... though he really annoys me sometimes.

Tsumu has been very supportive about us, Rin....

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"Rin.. I love you... I'll always love you... Happy Anniversary, Babe..."

"Samu... I love you so much... You are my world... You are my everything... Happy Anniversary.... I love you ..

"Anyways, Rin... You know, few months from now we'll be graduating and after that, I'll be taking over our family business... so I'm thinking...."

"What is it, Babe? What's on your mind?"

"I'm thinking of taking our relationship to the next level, Babe..." I said shyly

"What do you think, Rin? Would you like to spend the rest of your life with me?"

"You're proposing to me, Babe?" he replied as tears rolled down his face.

"Ohh!!! Don't cry, please... I'm sorry.. I guess you aren't.."

I wiped some tears from his cheeks and stared at his mesmerizing eyes.

"No... No.. these are tears of joy! I'm willing to be with you, Samu... Forever..."

And few days after that....

"I'm cheating on you...."

"I prefer to date a girl..."

"I am not like you...".

"Hate me all you want, Samu ...."

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I woke up with heaviness in my lungs. A wet cloth fell from my forehead as I pant heavily.

Where am... I?

The last thing I remembered is when Rin....

Tears swollen into my eyes... That's right... Rin... broke up with me...

I looked around and realized that I'm laying on Tsumu's bed... My head is spinning like crazy...and my breaths are uneven.

I sat up and catch some of my breaths. I am dizzy.

Rin's voice rings into my ears... Those words... those ruthless words... I can't imagine, he actually said those things to me....

It isn't the next level I am expecting, Rin.....

.

I sighed

I placed my feet into the floor and and adjusted my eyes to the dimness of the room.

I have to talk to Rin... I need to see him.. I need Rintarō more than ever.

But my body seems to have different plan... I tripped badly and fell into the floor making a crashing sound.

Good thing our parents are away to Tokyo to visit our uncles... I don't want to bother them with my relationship anyway...

It hurts... Dammit! I can't stand...

"SAMU!!! HEY!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!? YOU'RE SICK, YOU DUMBASS!" Tsumu yelled getting out of bed and quickly helping me.

"But...Tsumu.. I need..to ... talk...to Rin... I need..."

.

"That stupid ex of yours... is nothing but a jerk-"

"Stop badmouthing him, Tsumu! Please!" I said weakly as he assisted me to lean on the side of the bed.

"Yer stupid! He left you and still, all you think is him..."

"I... just... need... to.. see him.. Please.. Tsumu... Let me... see... Rin...." I said between each pant

"I won't allow you ... You've got yerself a fever because of that guy... so I won't let him have the satisfaction of seeing you like this.."

"But.. Tsumu... Rin.. Rin is my everything... I... I love him so much..."

"Come on... Let it go... Okay?!"

"I can't! It's easy for you to say! You haven't experience loving someone like this..."

Atsumu sighed in disbelief
"Fine... You can go talk to him once you gotten better, okay? So you better rest up... and I should be there, too."

I nodded and rested my head into my knees.

Rin... What did I do wrong? I want to know what I did.... Do I deserve this pain, Rintarō? Do you really have to hurt me this badly? You shattered my dreams... my heart...

I hope this is just a nightmare... in which I'll soon wake up from.... Rintarō....