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nightmares

Nightmares
Have been haunting my sleep recently every night and I'm lost on how. Everything has been good the usual Jinx and I being yelled at by Silco for blowing up stuff Jinx and I have only had two arguments over the smallest shit.

"YOU DAMN LOSER!" Jinx screamed in my face after slapping it causing my nose to bleed. I sobbed and I held my face "Jinx please I love you." I sobbed out her eyes pink and dangerous she growled at me and held the gun to my head "This why your parents died you FUCKING LOSER." She hit me over the head and pushed me off the ledge I let out a bloody scream as I fell seeing her laugh and stare down at me.

"AHHHH." I shot up screaming tears falling hot flashes sweat dripping my heart thumping at an ungodly pace, panting going dizzy. "Hey hey sugar..SUGAR." Jinx jumped up from next to me and grabbed my face "Talk to me what happened." "Get away." I slapped her hand and I crawled over to the edge of the bed. "Hey I'm not gonna hurt you." She held out her hand and I stared at it, I calmed a little and I stared at her she had worry on her face her blue eyes were soft filled with worried, she cocked her head at me like a puppy and stared at me, I slowly crept over and she put her arms around me laying down she pulled me to her chest, "I would never hurt you princess." She spoke softly rubbing my arm and back kissing forehead "You slapped me and called me a fucking loser." I shivered at the thought and I let out a shaky sigh "Stop Asteria sugar...I would NEVER hurt you..I love you too much, you mean everything to me." She spoke softly once more and I shoved my head in her neck and let out light sobs choking from my throat. She held me close to her and my sobs got louder and harder, I could feel her worry radiate off of her, she had no clue what was happening and I agreed.

"So how long has this been going on." I sat in Silcos office with a special therapist he paid to help me, "About two weeks ago." I spoke staring off not wanting to be here I just wanted Jinx. "Every night?" The therapist asked writing in his note bad "Yeah." I sighed leaning back placing my right foot up on the table. "I have a proposal." I looked up at him and I raised my eyebrow "Yeah?" I rolled my eyes looking away I could see Jinx snooping through the crack of the door and she saw and weakly smiled at me, I looked away to the doctor and raised an eyebrow.
"Trauma." "No shit." "I mean something is happening...that's triggering your ptsd." I sighed and looked down "How do I know?" I asked looking up at him "Be observant, look around, focus on what you really want and block out what's bad for you." He spoke writing in his book. I stood up and I sighed and walked out slamming the door behind me.
"Sugar?" Jinx asked and I looked up at her "What's wrong with me?" I asked and she looked down at me "Nothing toots you've just gone through a lot." She spoke and I shrugged "You're right." "You'll be ok....Ok sugar let's go."Jinx grabbed my arm and pulled me down the hall "Where too?" I asked following behind her "The city." Jinx cheered I smiled and I ran with her.

We walked along the skylines of the building the wind blowing and the smell of the shops below us, "Freedom my girl." Jinx spoke bouncing on her toes and I smiled, I lifted my arms and walked on the edge. The chatter of people and kids filled my ears I looked in front of me seeing a smiling and giggling Jinx, the sun piercing her fine skin her eyes shining in the light, her hair flowing in the wind...she was perfect. "This is how I clear my mind sometimes sugar." Jinx spoke jumping down the ledge onto a balcony and I followed her lead, the balcony lead to an abandoned apartment it had neon paint on the walls Jinx and mine logo she painted herself, a self defense dummy and games and a big bed. "I used to come out here, as a hide out...I still do sometimes, I came here all the time when I hid from VI." Jinx stopped and ran her fingers along the wall and I gazed at the black lights in the room. "So this is where you go to run off." I spoke looking around I laid my fingers along the iron headboard of her bed and I ran it along the mattress, clean it hasn't been used recently. "When's the last time you came here babe?" I asked looking around "Uh a week after we got together." She said bouncing on the bed "So it's been three months?" I asked looking up at her "Holy shit toots...we've together for four months." She jumped making the black sheets dirty. "I know hun." I smiled looking around some more then hoping on the bed with her, she stops jumping and then she sits in front of me, I leaned on the head board and I grabbed her braids and started to un braid them. "Eh carful toots it takes me forever to braid." She said and I giggled "I'll braid them back." I spoke kissing her cheek and then going back to her braids.
"So sugar talk to me." She spoke and I raised an eyebrow "About?" "Nightmares." She spoke and I halted in my movements "W-what do you mean?" I laid my hands down and she turned around pushing her hair back, fixing the braid. "What do you dream about? because it seems like you hate me when you wake up." She spoke and I was shocked "I-I don't hate you...I get scared." "Why?" "I have dreams you beat me, call me a fucking loser hurt me, you push me off the turbine ledges...I." I stopped and I looked down and I felt her grab my waist which made me gasp and she pulled me onto her lap "Sugar." Her fingers lifted my chin to look at her and I submitted. "Why in hell...I would NEVER EVER hurt you, you mean to much to me." She spoke pushing hair from my face. I nodded and I sighed "Listen toots....I'm your daydream."