jinxed|friends to lovers|fxf|

morning after

•warning depressive episode•

I let out a groan feeling my sore body under the warm covers, I lifted my head up and turned it to the side seeing a sleeping naked Jinx next to me, last night we took it a step farther in our relationship and it was amazing, like hella amazing. "Mm good morning sugar." Jinx slowly opened her eyes and looked at me, her beautiful blue eyes pierced my soul and I melted "Good morning babe." I smiled she pulled me to her chest and we tangled our legs together and she kissed my head "How do you feel after last night?" She asked looking down at me "Good...really good." I smiled and she smirked at me "Good, you did really good last night sunshine." She smiled giving me a kiss and then standing up from the covers, I admired her back it was covered in my claw marks from last night and I groaned and I covered my face in embarrassment "What's wrong sugar?" She asked looking back at me, "Your back." She looked in the mirror and smirked "It let's people know I'm taken." She winked at me and I blushed. "True." I mumbled and she rolled her eyes at me "I'm taking a shower toots, care to join me?" She asked looking at me and I looked at her innocently "I'm not crazy sunshine, we'll I am but not that, we don't have to do anything." She spoke looking down at me. God my eyes couldn't stop scanning her body her perfect form, her tattoos, her perfect breast ugh she was amazing. "S-sure." "You'll be fine silly." She spoke walking out of her room to the bathroom, I sighed and I stood up walking to the mirror, I have marks all on my body only for the two of us to fine, I ran my finger along them and I shivered flashbacks of last night hitting me.

"Ahh Jinx." I threw my head back as her head was buried in my neck, her fingers were surprisingly soft like silk. "What is it beautiful?" She asked chuckling darkly and moving her head to my stomach biting down I groaned out I gripped her hair as she sucked on my stomach. "Ahhh shit."

"You ok there sugar?" I looked in the mirror seeing a unclothed Jinx leaning on the door frame. "Yeah I'm fine." I shook my head and I turned around "You look smoking hot when marked." She winked at me and I blushed I slowly followed her to the bathroom it was warm in there, the steam filled my lungs and I sighed she stepped in first and then she grabbed my hand and helped in me. "See?" Jinx spoke as she towered behind me the water flowing down my back and I sighed at the warmth. "Do people usually do this the morning after." I asked looking up at her "Yes." She giggled "Don't worry...I'll take care of you."

"Asteria..you're not eating?" Silco asked as we all sat at the table. "I'm not hungry." I spoke poking at my food "What's going on sugar?" Jinx asked and I looked over at her "Just not feeling it rn." I told the truth I wasn't, I was having a moment for some reason all my anxiety and depression just slapped me in the face and hard, "You were ok this morning." Silco spoke "That was this morning." I caught an attitude I wasn't trying to I just didn't feel good, it was around 2pm and I was ready to sleep. "Try and eat at least." Jinx spoke with her feet propped up on the table. "I'm good." I spoke looking at it on my fork "Please." "I said no." I threw my fork down and and rushed off from the room leaving Jinx and Silco sitting there probably in awe.
I sludged through the hall heading to our area of the house, I let out a sigh and I blinked slowly my head was blank and aching my heart thumped slowly the only thing on my mind was Jinx...how I just snapped at her this isn't the first time so she's probably used to it. I opened our door and I looked at her workshop and I walked down the ledge laying down on my back and I let my head hang off the ledge my eyes staring at the depth below me, I grabbed a rock and I threw it down feeling the warmth fly up as it burned up.
"Knock knock silly." I heard Jinx's voice echo through the room "Hey." I sighed out her footsteps echoed through the room and she sat down next to me rubbing my belly, as my arms hung over the edge with my head "What's going on sugar?" She asked and I sighed "You know." I mumbled rolling over on my stomach still keeping my arms and head on the edge, I felt her hand place on my back and I relaxed at her touch. "Talk to me." I loved seeing her be serious in moments like this it was attractive. "I- us." I spoke without hesitation "What's wrong with us?" She asked looking worried "I'm scared I'm to much for you and you'll leave me." "No no ma'am, I've lived with for years we've been through anything and everything, I'm here to take care of you...love you... protect you...you're not loosing me sunshine."She rubbed my back and I sighed "Please don't." "I won't....Here." I looked up seeing a plate "You need to eat." I nodded and I sat up, she put her arm around me and I laid my head in her lap and I grabbed a pea pod and ate it, "Eat slowly." She spoke rubbing my hair and I nodded. "Thank you." "Anything for you sugar."