falling deep- JJ Maybank

Kook central

TW- slight mention of abuse and trauma,, I will say when the bit is over!!!

Yesterday was a rollercoaster of emotions too say the least. Hearing my dads voice again was everything I ever wanted, but then reality set in. That would be the last time I hear it. I knew he was gone, just like everyone had been trying too tell me and my brother. I wasn't in denial and I certainly wasn't dumb, I knew my dad was dead. Sound extremely blunt but it was the truth and it was about time everyone accepted it.

I stayed at the chateu last night with everyone else, telling my mum I was still at Kiara's house comforting her. We went out on the HMS pouge the next day and today was the day I finally did it. I took my top off and went out in just a bikini. I had been scared for too long besides people might not notice them.

Everyone was waiting for me on the pouge while I stood in the bathroom staring at my body in the mirror, I let my finger trace my burns that Andy had left. I was wearing a red bikini with straps, it complemented my hair colour and I had a slight tan. I felt my eyes begin too brim with tears as I kept staring at my own reflection. Then the door opened and Kie walked in, she looked at me smiling until she noticed how I had attempted too cover the scars.

''Ari?'' She whispered, she slowly walked over too me removing my hands from where the scars were. Her bottom lip trembled as she looked at them, she squeezed her eyes hard too stop herself from crying.

''Did- did you do this too yourself or was it someone else?'' She choked out, grabbing my cheek making me look at her. I shook my head.

''No its Andy , please im begging you don't tell them they can't know and he doesn't do it anymore I promise please,'' I sobbed shaking horrendously, I felt my knees ready too give way but Kie grabbed me pulling me into a hug.

''I won't tell them I promise but I can't let you go back there ecpecially not alone you have too stay with me,'' She insisted and I nodded my head. She made me sit on the counter helping me cover up the scars with water proof concealer and powder.

''Thank you,'' I whispered

''I'll always look out for you,' She whispered back, she took my hand and walked out with me and towards the boat.

Those words stuck with me while we walked out, I hated too admit it but back in Nassu I was basically Sarah Cameron. We had a huge house there as well and the same stupid fountain on the drive. Girls only spoke too me because of my money and my house. I suppose that's why I feel bad for Sarah she needs somebody like Kie. I feel like I might have just got lucky.

Kie didn't let go of my hand as we walked up to the boat, she stayed by my side the whole time until we reached the boat. I put on a pair of Kies washed out denim shorts and still had my red bikini top and bottoms on.

The boys saw me coming and JJ's mouth fell open and John B slapped him across the head making Pope fall backwards with laughter. Kie and me jumped on the boats and before I could go too sit down JJ grabbed my arm and pulled me aside. He looked me up and down and smirked at me making me shake my head and blush. I tried to hide the clear red in my cheeks but it was near impossible.

''You look good,'' He whispered in my ear, it sent butterflys down my spine. I winked and walked away too the front of the boat where Kie was.

She patted the seat infront of her, and I sat down. ''can I put your hair into two french braids it would look so pretty,'' She said and I nodded, she was clearly trying her best too make me feel as happy as possible. She was being sweet.

She began to part my hair into two sections, I always loved people doing my hair it made me feel like I was little again. I remember when I was eight and my dad and John B went all the way too the library just too figure out how to do girls hairstyles. My dad even went too miss Lana for help, she would teach him how to braid it and wash it properly. He even got Lana to teach John B incase he was too busy too do my hair.