falling deep- JJ Maybank

Polaroids

There's this emotion called happiness, people always pin point it on money or what you own. The quote being ''Money buys happiness'' I thought for a while that money would fix every issue. Money can buy your dreams, life, anything.

But money can't buy family, that's different. Family is something that just sticks, like the gross gum that the freshman stick under the table at school. My happiness is my family more specifically this group called the pouges.

I have money a house, everything I ever wanted. Even my step dad offered too buy me y first car. I have never struggled too have a meal at my table or if I saw an item of clothing I wanted I could have it at the click of my fingers. I thought I was spoilt for not feeling as though this was all enough, that I was a monster for being unhappy. Until I returned home and I found my brother, the pouges... JJ. All I ever wanted was a family.

That's when it clicked. Being rich was a lifestyle not happiness.

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''You know im jealous of your hair,'' Kie groaned playfully as she finished tying my last French braid. It became routine.

I rolled my eyes at her, no one was ever jealous of me nor of my hair. Besides Kiara had beautiful curly hair that I was envious of. My hair made me bored if im being honest, I always have this compulsive idea too just chop it off because why not. But im scared of what others would think.

''When you um went home last night was he ya know home,'' She stuttered on every word clearly referring too Andy. She had still kept my secret which I was forever grateful for, she didn't need too but she did.

''No he wasn't but my mum knows I have been seeing you all,'' Her eyes widened ''Don't worry she said she doesn't care just Andy can't know she said he would kill her but then she went all suspicious and shaky as if she had said too much,''

Kie furrowed her brows, she was clearly just as confused as I was. The amount of theories I held in my mind was mind blowing at the least.

''I am sure we will figure it out, as long as your mum is okay,'' She reasured me, she could clearly see the worry that was held in my eyes.

Kie always had a solution too cure my happiness, she would find some way too help me. She reached into the pockets of her denim shorts and pulled out two polaroids. I couldn't make out what it was but it made Kiara smile. She passed me the polaroids, and my confused frown turned into a grin in a matter of seconds. They were both identical photos of me and JJ, I had my head in his lap with him sticking his tounge out. His tounge was so close too my face, I remember the day it was the day on the boat. He made me laugh that morning, so hard that my ribs hurt.

I smiled at the pictures so hard my cheeks turned red ''You should tell him,'' Kie said, I turned too look at her confused.

''Tell him how you feel,'' She sighed out, making me shake my head ''Don't even try denying it, Ari everyone see's it I spoke too John B about it and he even see's it,''

''You spoke too my brother about my love life,'' My jaw dropped

''ooo love life now is it,'' She mocked and I playfully nudged her shoulder.

Was the truth about me and JJ seriously that clear, was I that see through. Yeah I am not gonna lie I don't see JJ like I see Pope, I don't see him as a brother. But I have never felt like this with boys and I wasn't about too just admit my undying love too a boy. Not when I have been brought up too expect rejection.

''How would I even tell him,'' I whispered and her eyes lit up and she jumped up and down like a little kid who just got given a lolly pop. She twirled me around and held my face screeching.