𝐓𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡 𝐌𝐞 𝐈𝐈

two.

kendra summers

"i feel like i failed him," i said to myself as i put tavares' stuff in boxes. i was at his apartment clearing up his apartment.

i couldn't help but blame myself for tj dying. i could've warned him, gave him a heads up, helped him get out of his situation or something. instead i just let ts happen. because of some street code ian even got nun to do with.

i grew up around tj all my life. any time i had shit going on with my mom at home i'd always be hear. even though he never involved me, i knew about everything he had going.

he taught me how to shoot my first gun. where to go and where not go. how to fight, etc. he was like my big brother fr.

this is was all his fault tho. he shouldn't have thought greedily. he knows luca and deante are like his family any problem he had he should've brought to em and they would've handled it accordingly.

"so fucking dumb bruh," i said throwing a picture frame on the ground. why'd he have to snake them? why did he have to do some dumb shit like that? he knew better than that. he knew better to try and kill the people he called family.

i wiped my tears as i thought about him more and more. i wish i could bring him back. i wish i could've done more.

just then i got a call from egypt's mom. i answered it quickly before i missed it.

"is she awake?" i asked.

"no not yet," she sighed, "i just called to check up on you. i know you went to clear up tavares' stuff today... how you feeling?"

"i don't know aunty. a lot's going through my mind right now," i shook my head. i couldn't get into it for specific reasons. "i just feel like i could've done more,"

"i feel the same way now with this stuff going on with egypt. but i'm trying not to beat myself up about it as you should do also. the more you think like that the worse you'll feel,"

"i even feel bad about egypt. bruh why is everything going wrong right now?" i said beginning to get frustrated.

"look kendra anytime you need anyone i'll be right here. think of me as your second mom or something. egypt will wake up soon and every thing will partially go back to normal. don't overthink okay?"

"alright," i sighed, "ima be by the hospital when i get done over here,"

"okay you know i'm always here anyway,"

"alright aunty i'll see you later," i said ending the call. i started up clearing up his things again.

*

"you're such a much better friend than mei was," egypt's mom said to me.

"not too much on mei she actually cool people," i laughed.

"no fr she was but she had her moments... i always thought she was jealous of egypt or something but y'alls friendship seems so genuine,"

"it is. never would i have ever thought me and her would be this close. me and egypt used to hate each other," i chuckled taking a look at her. just watching her laying there brought tears to my eyes. but i'm thugged out ain't nobody here bout to see me cry.

"it's okay to cry kendra," she said rubbing my back, "don't hold in your feelings,"

"someone gotta be strong out of all of us," just then the doors opened and in walked deante. i hadn't seen him since that night and i really didn't feel like seeing him now.

"wassup ma," he said hugging egypt's mom.

"everything okay? how's luca?" she asked.

"he's coping... still in that coma but he should be good. doctors said so," he said looking around. i could see the pain in his eyes as he thought about luca and looked over at egypt. both of his best friends literally fighting for their lives right now and he couldn't do nothing about it.

"can i talk to you real quick?" he looked over at me. i looked over at egypt's mom and she nodded giving me the okay. i got up and followed deante out to the corridor.

"you good? i been tryna call, text you-"

"you killed my cousin dee. my big brother is because you killed him. and not only that you left his dead body on his momma's front porch. why do you care about what i feel now you ain care that night,"

"i know i was hella high that night i'm sorry, you know how i get. all that extra shit tho, was because your "big brother" tried to end his own brother out of jealousy. tj knew better. he knew if he told us how he was feeling then we would've handled it like grown men. instead he was plotting against us. he got both of our friends in hospital beds, fighting for their lives rn and he ain't give not one fuck about putting his hands on egypt like that. that nigga was never kept in the dark about nothing he was just slacking on his own. we tried to put him on, he'd tell us he had enough money. that he was good, that he was chilling. so he had no right to do the shit he done but done it anyway. if it wasn't for him all this shit wouldn't be going on rn and you know it," he said. i just stared at him taking in everything he said. even though he was right, i still couldn't help but blame myself.

"if he was your brother why ain't you give him an ultimatum or something? y'all could've made him leave the city, shit even the country. instead y'all killed him,"

"if me and luca ain do that i wouldn't be standing here today and you would have to bury all three of us. me, luca and egypt. and then what? you gon get mad at tj same way you getting mad at me?" he huffed, "ian even come here for all this. i came to apologize. ian spoken to you since that night,"

"you said you left my cousin's body in front of my aunts house for a lil "razzle dazzle" and thought i was bout to sit smiling in your face,"

"i was high i apologize shit was uncalled for," he said. i stared at him for a while and he didn't crack a smile meaning he was telling the truth.

"kendra we need each other the most rn. you probably can't tell if i'm hurting but trust me i am. and i know you are too,"

"i am dee. i'm hurting so bad. and i can see you hurting too,"

"come here," he said pulling me into a hug then kissing me on the forehead, "i love you so much ken. i would never do anything to intentionally hurt you, you know that,"

"i know... i love you too." i said burying my head into his chest. i wish the earth would just swallow me rn.

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i hate going back to old chapters cos reading my own shit makes me cringe so could someone kindly remind me what egypt's mom's name was? i think it was like mama mae or some shit idk.