I'm Casting Spells

first show

Matthew got up and got ready for the day and so did I. Gabby had already came and got little man so we could get ready for his show. I was so excited to see him preform for the first time. He was amazing when he sang at home. It was time for the show. He was about to go onstage, I fixed his shirt and he kissed me before going out and starting. I videoed it for a bit then cheered him on. Halfway through his show he ran and got me. I was shocked.
"HEY EVERYONE THIS IS KADY! THE FAMOUS GIRLFRIEND"

i smiled and took the mic
"HEY YALL!"

Everyone cheered and it made me happy I handed the mic back and he helped me back to the side area and kissed me before finishing the show. He was such a freaking sweetheart. When he was done he was all sweaty and gross, but he tackled me In a huge hug and kissed me

"You did amazing! I loved it!!!"

"Come on let's get back to the bus baby."

"Mhmm, I love you. "

We headed back to the bus, where Gabby had little man asleep, we headed for the showers and when we got out his manager was waiting for him. He looked at her

"Why did you pull that shit tonight?"
She looked at him

"What?"
He looked at her confused.

"Seriously. Bringing her on stage?"

"Excuse me I'm right here and I will not let you sit here and question what he does."

"You better get your little hoe, because this game has gone on too long"

"Excuse me" then the anger hit. And I knew what was coming. She wouldn't stop and so I blacked out. When I came to Matt and I were in the back of a ambulance

"Baby please"

"Oh God, I'm sorry I'm so sorry"

"Baby no. She hurt you."

I was confused but when I sat up and seen the blood I knew.
"I-i oh my g-god"

I was terrified. The last time there was this much blood I had no baby. That is exactly what is going on. There's not a baby I know. I looked at everyone and we got to the hospital and they did a ultrasound and sure enough. And then everything went numb. And all I knew was Matthew was on the phone immediately. Then he looked at me with tears
"I'm sorry baby, I'm so sorry" he cried into me

"I-i will be okay. It's gonna be okay"

"It's not okay. This is terrible. How, how can you deal with something like this?"

"I-its the fifth time I've lost a baby. I-it don't scare me no more. I'm okay. I have so many more chances to have a baby. I promise."

The doctors came in did there tests and confirmed it. They released us and we went to the bus. He looked at me
"I am not really okay. But if I woulda said I wasn't in there I wouldn't be standing here "

He held me and we cried. And while we were crying Gabby and Alex came in. They looked at us and I just looked at them, they put little man down

"She got fired, she was your managers assistant. And she was told to come ask if you made the right move by brining her onstage not come at you."

"Well she came at kady not me. And we all know how kady gets. She has that black out energy and I tried to stop her but I couldn't."

"I'm sorry."
I got up going and laying in bed. I didn't wanna move. This one hurt more. We had been talking about a baby so this one hurt. I cried myself to sleep. I woke up a few hours later when little man was placed beside me and then the bus started to move.
"Hey little guy" I kissed his head and calmed down. I got up using the bathroom and Matthew was drinking. I stopped dead in my tracks and looked at him

"I promise I'm not gonna get drunk. You want a drink?"

"Yeah."

He poured me a drink and we drank one together before putting it up. We stood there holding each other. We cried and then we sat down and talked about when we would try next. And decided a half year from now. We went to bed, Lil man in-between us. We decided to just pay all of our attention to him. I woke up when the bus stopped, and I didn't feel Matt or little man next to me. I got up and they were in the kitchen cooking. I smiled and they made me a plate. And we all sat and ate. Matthew considered canceling the tour but I told him no. This was his whole life. He loved what he did. This was it. And for me I loved my job. I got to edit pictures of my man. He was gonna have me do paperwork but then his main manager gave me this job and I loved it. Alot.

"Babe what's on your mind?"

"Hmm, oh you."

He laughed and looked at me
"No seriously"

"I am serious. I was thinking bout you. How I love editing pictures of you "

"Your the best" he kissed me then cleaned up. I saw in the floor and colored with little man.....
....
I stayed in with Lil man while he preformed. Except Gabby called. Telling me he wasnt preforming his best. So Alex came and sat with him and I went to the side stage. In-between songs I yelled

"YOU GOT THIS! I LOVE YOU!"
He looked over at me and smiled. It was a broken one but he smiled. He finished his set and Gabby said he did much better. When he finished he hugged me close. I loved it. He picked me up carrying me back to the bus, we showered and got ready for bed. Little man was almost asleep and we kissed him happily. We went to our bed and snuggled
"We gotta talk"
"Yeah, we do"
"I looked up places for therapy. I can't cope with this"
"I get it. It's hard. I talked to my therapist while you were getting ready"
"Good, I'm glad"
"But listen, you need to give your all in your shows!"
"Yes ma'am!"
"Glad we cleared it up"
We kissed and smiled happily, then fell asleep.... I woke up in the middle of the night puking. Ugh. I looked at the time. 2am. I got cleaned up and sat down and edited pictures. I loved this. So much. I got me a snack and a hot chocolate, then continued to edit.