Things I've never told you

All I ever think about is you

Mia - Day of the wedding

I stared at myself in the mirror in my wedding dress with a full face of makeup and my hair was done up. Today was supposed to be the happiest day of my life but how could I enjoy it when my heart was breaking? There was only one person I wanted to see today but she wanted space from me because she thought our night together was a mistake whereas it meant everything to me. That night was everything I've ever wanted and it wasn't even the sex that I was talking about. The intimacy with Dani was amazing and I've never felt closer to her. Maybe this was for the best, this space between us. It was time to let this unrequited love I have for her go and even though I felt bad for making Emil a rebound, I had to do what I had to do. I love Emil but the love I have for Dani is stronger, but I had to protect my heart from further damage and the only reason why I was going through with the wedding. Emil was safe, I knew he loved me and that my heart was safe with him.

There was a knock on the door and I wiped a tear that fell on my cheek, "come in," I croaked.

Dominic poked his head in and broke into a grin, "wow, you don't look half bad," he joked.

I laughed and shook my head, leave it to my brother to humble me even on my wedding day. "Where's Dani?" he asked looking around the bridal room that she was supposed to get ready in with me.

I pretended to check my makeup in the mirror, "she's not coming," I tried to say as nonchalantly as possible.

He must've heard the shakiness in my vouce because I caught his eyebrow raise in the mirror, "what do you mean she's not coming?"

"Exactly that," I took a deep breath, "can you hand me my bouquet? you should probably get in your seat as well, I think we might be starting soon." I had to somehow divert the conversation away from Dani because I could tell he had questions.

"Mia," he started but I turned around and gave him a sad smile but I shook my head, "I'll tell you later, Dom."

He looked like he was battling with wanting to stay and get information out of me or respecting my wishes. Thank God he chose the latter because I was still trying to process the whole Dani thing. If I had known that I was going to lose my best friend, I would have never gone through with that night or blurted my feelings out to her in a last ditch attempt to give us a chance. I would've rather gone through life loving Dani from afar than to not have her in my life at all. But now we're both paying for our actions but I wish it had a different result.

Terri knocked on the door, "Mia, we're just about ready."

"Okay, I'll be out in a minute!" I smooth down the front of my dress and took a deep breath. Here goes nothing, I guess.

Dani – 1 hour before the wedding

I tried concentrating on the screen in front of my but it was kind of hard to focus on anything right now considering Mia was going to walk down the aisle today.

I shook my head and forced myself to read the text in front of me but I wasn't retaining any of the information. The events of the day I saw Sadie replayed in my mind every night before I went to sleep.

I was parked in my family's driveway with a bouquet of flowers and a small box of chocolate covered strawberries, maybe it was a cheap way of apologizing for running out on her but I wanted to soften her up. My phone vibrated in my pocket Mia's name came up on my phone but my heart sunk reading her one word text.

Mia: Fine.

Yikes. She's angry. I put my phone back in my pocket and walked to the door with the gifts in my hands. It was definitely going to take a lot more than this to get her to talk to me but it was all I had at the moment.