He is the poem I wanted to write// rewriting

Nature feels like home

THOMASES POV

Okay, that didn't work out well, he probably doesn't want to have anything in common with me, but if he doesn't why was he drawing me? He was probably just training how to draw faces or something, maybe he is drawing everyone in class like that. I don't know, I'm confused and sad. I shouldn't have gone looking for him, I should have waited for a better opportunity to finally speak with him. Damn it, Thomas you are so dumb. I hope I get some other chance to talk to him, but I doubt that. The class is starting again, everyone is walking back in, I need another cigarette tho, it helps me with stress. I have decided that coming a few minutes late won't be a big problem and I walked away from school. I notice Gil looking my way, I showed him a cigarette in my hand and gave him a sad smile. He nodded and walked inside with the others. I lit it up and took a long inhale, as I stood there exhaling smoke out of my lungs, already feeling a bit better. I saw Cole rushing inside, he probably didn't notice the class started already. He saw me, "Arent you going in?" he asked quietly and a bit nervously? Maybe he is just afraid to speak to me, I must admit I look kinda scary. "Yeah, ill be there in a bit, I just went for a smoke" I smiled lightly showing the cigarette in my hand. "Oh, okay, well see you there" See me there? "yeah, see ya" Maybe he wants to have something in common with me after all, he walked in and I smiled for myself taking another inhale. He is so adorable. After a few minutes, I finished smoking and went inside, Mr. Philips won't be happy with me being late, I don't even have an excuse. As I walked in I noticed some boys and girls standing by the board, they were having a spelling contest. Mr. Philips was giving them some words and then he stopped and looked at me. "And why are you late Mr. Hunter, wanted to skip the contest huh?" shit. " No, I'm sorry sir, I didn't notice class started already, I was reading for the history class." Lame excuse but sure Thomas. "History class.. sure, sit down and keep quiet." I nodded and went to sit down, I knew he didn't believe me at all but at least I didn't get in trouble. Gil looked at me. " Sure, reading," he giggled and I gave him an annoyed look, I want to go home already. I opened the book I brought to school, it was some romance that my mother gave me last year. When I wanted to start reading I noticed one of the boys in front of the board was Cole. He looked nervous, he was next to spell, "Now spell mystery." Mr. Philips said carelessly, Cole looked even more stressed and scared now. "M- I don't know sir" His voice was breaking. Poor boy, I wish I could help him in some way. "It doesn't surprise me that you don't, go sit down Mr. Mackenzie" He walked away from the board looking so disappointed in himself. As he sat down I grabbed a little piece of paper and wrote down It's okay, I wouldn't know that either, Mr. Philips sucks. I folded the paper and made Gil pass it to Cole. He looked shocked at first, perhaps no one ever send him a note, not counting those poems I sneak on his desk sometimes in the morning, when no one is here yet. He opened it and, froze? Did I screw it up again? Maybe I just got the false idea of him wanting to talk to me and I overstepped the line. I got too excited that he might wants to be my friend.

COLES POV

I was staring at that note, maybe I didn't completely screw up the whole conversation before, or he was just trying to be nice. He must have noticed how nervous I was and he felt sorry for me. Still, this little note made me feel so much better. He noticed me, and he wanted to cheer me up! That's a big success for me! I should give him a sign that I appreciate it. I wonder how tho, sending a note back is too risky, Mr. Philips could see and we both get in trouble, tho after school work with Thomas didn't sound so bad, we could get closer. But I don't want him to get in trouble, he already risked for me early today. Maybe I should at least look back and give him a smile, ahh but that's so hard, I would probably look dumb. I still grab all my courage and I look back, he is looking right at me! Shit. I wasn't expecting that. I smile and try not to show how nervous I'm. He smiles back, my heart is going to pop out of my chest. His smile is the most perfect thing I've ever seen. I catch myself staring for too long. I turn back before anyone else notices and I get back to drawing. The school ended pretty soon today. I packed my stuff and get up looking for Anne and the others. We usually walk home together. Anne ran up to me, "I saw everything! It was so romantic!" she yells. "Please quiet down, everyone can hear you," I say looking around if anyone noticed. And someone actually did, Thomas and Gil were staring at us confused. Well, that's just great, I look angrily at Anne, " I'm so sorry, they probably didn't get the idea tho, don't worry" " And what if they did? What if HE did?" I'm freaking out, I need to calm down. " Look, they have no idea" She looks their way and they are already going to the door talking about what they are going to do after school. I exhale and feel relieved. "Let's just go home." I tell her walking towards the door. She goes after me.

THOMASES POV

We walked out of the classroom with Gil, I was a bit confused about why Anne yelled before, but over the voices of other classmates, I couldn't really hear what she yelled. We finally got outside, "Sooo any plans now?" Gil asked. "No, not really, I'll probably go home and study or read something. What about you?" I noticed he would probably like to hang out, but I was emotionally tired after today. I need to get some rest. "No, I was thinking about some work at the farm with Bash tho, if you want you can join us." I really like Sebastian, he is really nice and funny, no matter what others may think about him because of his skin color. "You know I would usually say yes without thinking about it, but I'm really tired today, I think I'll just head out home." "Yeah, sure I completely get it." We got to the point where our ways split. "See you tomorrow." "Yeah see ya, good luck with the farm work." We both smile and wave at each other and I'm on my way, alone, finally. I take a deep breath and look around, everything looks so pretty in may. Trees have finally blossomed after a long winter, flowers are basically everywhere, and they are beautiful. The wind is warm and the sky is covered with some small white clouds, really the world looks like a painting from some famous artists right now. Looking at it makes me forget all of my worries and problems, that's why I love to sit outside and just watch the leaves dance on the tree crows. I walk slowly, enjoying every moment and every little detail of the beautiful nature around me. I feel kinda free. I always have felt kinda free and comforted in nature. I'll probably end up sitting outside all day again. I start to walk a bit faster and way more excited, I can't wait to get home. I touch the tall green grass that's on my left, it's a whole field there. The grass is shivering in the wind and shining under the sunlight. I look to my right and start touching the green beautiful leaves of an old tree. I jump a little in the middle of my walk, I feel really comfortable and happy after the whole day in that small, boring-looking classroom. I love the part of the day when I finally get out of there. All though Cole is there, he is kinda like nature. So pretty, simple, and comforting. Maybe that's one of the reasons why I like him so much, he feels like home. No matter how little I know him, he still gives me the feeling of belonging somewhere. I don't want to worry about him or anything else right now though, the only thing I will be thinking about from now on is the book I can finally read. No Cole until tomorrow.