Sam
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Progress that was definitely progress. I think to myself as I leave the store. I actually apologized to her and gave her her parking spot back. I was actually nice for a change I didn't lose my temper at all I don't know how I didn't but I didn't and I feel fucking fantastic.
And now I'm thinking how pretty she looked and how I can't stop thinking about her and her snarky attitude that makes me more intrigued by her.
Nope I can't have these thoughts she literally hates my guts and I'm not to into feelings, but maybe I can be a friend. Maybe this can be my way of changing. Or it's just that I just feel the need to be close to her and to talk to her.
Nope I think it's best if I keep my distance that way she doesn't get caught up with my problems so no friends just strangers.
She was really pretty though the way she doesn't care is she looks bad made her more beautiful
Stop it head!
I smack my self
you can't think like that
Okay I think it's time I get home my moms probably worried.
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As soon as I get home I'm met with my moms face right away.
"Donde estabas?." She asks speaking Spanish which means she's serious
(English: Where were you?)
"I just went to get food for Harley it just took me a while because we're new here. I had to drive around to find the store. So no need to worry about me I'm fine no fights at all today."
That was a lie but hey at least it wasn't a physical one
"I'm sorry honey. I shouldn't have questioned you like that. I was just so worried about you."
"Ya se, but I'm okay mama."
(English: I know)
(English: Mom)
"Okay." she said softly. "I love you Sam, so much. Now come give me a hug!, You didn't give me one this morning before you left and neither did Estrella."
I chuckle a little. She's so nice and soft one minute then demanding the next. I go to hug her and whisper "I love you so much mom."
She hugs me tighter then let's go and hits my arm "Why are you trying to make me cry today."
"Mom there no reason to cry."
"I know but I'm scared honey." I can tell She's not talking about me saying I love you and the hug anymore
"I know me to, but we'll get through this." I say to comfort her but in reality I have no idea if anything will be better here. We'll see...
"I know you will, we all will." She saids so softly to me
We finally pull away "Okay enough of this sappy shit-." I say but am cut off
"Sam!" my mom yells
"Que?."
(English: what?)
"No dirty words in this house." She says in a
very angry tone
"Ugh fine."
"Thank you." She said in a nice tone not so angry anymore
"So what's for dinner?."
"Tamales con arroz." She says
yes my favourite
"Why don't you go get your sister. Dinners almost ready."
"Okay."
"Estrella come down dinners ready!" I yell from down stairs
"Aye! Samuel I said go get her, not scream for her."
(Spanish name: S-a-m-w-eh-l) that's the best I could do to show you how it's pronounced
"My bad."
"Coming." Estrella screams back
"It worked though." I tell my mom
She laughs because she know it's true
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After we're done eating we all go to the living room to put on a movie. It's a kinda family tradition we made up. And I love it. When it's my turn to pick the movie
"No not that one." I say seeing Estrella pick a sad movie
"It's my turn so suck it up."
"Ugh."
"Sam you know who's ever turn it is gets to pick whatever they want so stop with the moping."
I quickly send a middle finger to my sister
And all she does is smirk
Ugh
The movie five feet apart starts playing
I guess I'll watch
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About a little towards the end of the movie I start feeling tired and head to bed while my sister and mom stay on the couch still wide awake watching the movie with tears in there eyes
I know there not crying for anything serious but it still hurts for some reason to see them sad
As soon as I hug and kiss them good night I head upstairs and plop down on my bed ready to sleep.
But just laying there staring at my ceiling I'm thinking about Carson and I can't stop it. Why
I soon start to feel my eyes close and I'm gone last thing on my mind is her.
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