Hunter's Shadow

Chapter eighteen

Sam didn't say anything for a longtime and you were worried that your revelation caused him to go into shock. Unsure of what to do you tried to leave but Sam stopped you.
"Y/n sweetheart you can't just drop a bombshell like that and leave without letting me say anything, " Sam said to you. He had no idea how  in the world you managed to figure out, who he was without him saying anything. Did he act too parental with you and you just put two and two together? Or did you just consider him your father.

"I'm sorry I just needed to tell you, " you responded. "I know I should said something earlier and you probably don't believe me, but I'm telling the truth, " you continued. "I didn't believe it at first either but Mom showed me everything, " you explained. After that you expected your father to yell at you for not saying anything sooner or to not believe you. Instead however he said something that surprised you.

"So you've seen her to?" He asked. You looked at him in surprise wondering if had been aware of your heritage already. "Remember that night we fought?" You nodded still unsure of what to say. "Sarah was in your room and I thought I was dreaming but she told me everything, " he explained. After hearing this you felt like crying since you felt hurt that he hadn't been honest with you.
"Wait did you not tell me because you didn't want me?" You asked.

Sam immediately told you that wasn't the reason at all. He still could imagine you thinking that you were unwanted, he hated Rani for drilling that into your brain. He hated whatever force of nature decided to have you taken from him, and he hated himself for not knowing you were suffering.
"Y/n no please don't ever think that, I love you, I just didn't know how to tell you, " he told you. At this point you couldn't keep your tears at the bay.

"I'm sorry Daddy I didn't mean to think so low of you, " you cried. Sam held you close until you stopped crying, he didn't say anything because he felt that no words needed to be said. The truth was out and there was no turning back at this point. Besides he wanted to let you calm down before he said anything else that might accidentally make things worse. Even once your tears stopped you didn't leave your father's arms, you didn't care if most kids your age considered themselves too old to do that.

"I'm sorry I'm such a mess, " you finally said.
"No baby you're not mess, being a teenager is hard enough believe me, " he told you. "But when you live this life and discover a secret like this, it changes the way you feel about everything, " he continued. It wasn't just comforting words he was giving you, he was also talking about himself in this scenario. Discovering that he had a child made him look at the world differently. Ever since he was kid, he had seen the world as a dark and empty place.

How could not think that with all the monsters he saw on a daily basis. The only lights in his life we're his family but they weren't perfect, so he desired to find a flame to extinguish the darkness. At first he found in Jessica but she once was gone, the darkness in his life was back. But finding out about you, made him feel not only whole, but the world around him seemed so different. While it was still lurking with monsters it seemed full of light and hope now.

"That's really deep, " you commented. "I understand I wanted to tell you as soon as I found out, " you continued. "But I thought you would just laugh in my face, "
"No I wouldn't have done that but I'm glad you finally told me, the truth has been eating at me for awhile, " he answered. You told him you knew how that felt but another uncertainty filled your head. What was going to happen now? How exactly did you be a good daughter or have a relationship with your father after not knowing him your whole life. Okay that wasn't true you knew of him for a longtime, and so far you seemed to have a stable relationship.

"Something on your mind?" Your father asked.
"Just thinking about a lot I guess, " you admitted. "I've never had a father before and I don't know how to be a daughter to you, " you continued.
"If it helps so far you're doing a great job but you really need to start listening to me," Sam said to you. You laughed at his words a little saying that as a teenager you were supposed to rebel a bit. "Oh great now you sound like me at sixteen, " he joked. You laughed again picturing him as a teen rebelling against his father.