I haven't heard from Marshall for a week now. I've tried to call him but he hasn't answered until this morning where he told me that he wants me to come over to his place so we can talk things out. I instantly felt nervous of course.
I borrow Deja's car and head over to Marshall's. He lives in the mobile court just down the street from me. I pull into the court searching for his trailer, I see him sitting on the front steps of his porch.
"Hey baby" I say getting out off the car.
"Rachel we need to talk about us" he says not even greeting me, let alone looking at me.
"What about us" I say sitting down next to him on the steps.
"I can't give you a relationship right now... I just got all this shit going on with trying to make this rap shit happen and I don't need any distractions" he says looking at the ground.
"Where is this coming from? I've never said I wanted a relationship with you. In fact, I don't even take us serious" I say trying to hurt him the way he's hurting me. I actually want a relationship with him.
That makes him finally look up at me. He gives me a cold stare.
"What do you mean you never took us serious? I really like you Rachel and wanted a relationship but I can't with all these distractions" he says looking at me with a touch of sadness in his eyes.
"Marshall.. you were the one who came to me at the club looking for something, you were the one wanting something and now you come to me saying you can't now?" I say angrily.
"Your right I did...but now it means nothing since it means nothing to you" he says.
"It did mean something to me... You mean something to me but here you are calling me a distraction, I believe in you when no one else does, I want to help you achieve your goals but your just pushing me away. You have been pushing me away all week." I say on the verge of tears.
"I'm done Marshall... I can't be with someone who doesn't value me" I say getting into my car.
"Rachel pleas-" is all I hear him say before I slam my door shut and drive off.
What just happened? I think to myself. Did we just breakup without even officially being in a relationship? I couldn't help but to feel used. I feel like ever since I gave him oral sex he didn't call me. It's like he got what he wanted and then didn't contact me until he had to.
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I arrive home and walk in the apartment feeling hopeless.
"Damn bitch what's wrong with you" Deja says as she sees me walk in.
"I think whatever me and Marshall had is done" I say feeling confusion and sadness.
"Wait what? What the fuck happened" she walks up to me giving me a hug.
I cry into my best friends arms. I tell Deja the story from start to finish. Even though me and Marshall didn't last long I've never felt those type of feelings for any man. I've never opened up so quickly to someone in so many ways. I opened up to him with my dreams and feelings and even sexually, which is so different for me.
"Okay bitch enough of this sappy bullshit, we're gonna go out tonight bitch" she says seriously.
"Deja... I can't tonight..." I say feeling sorry for myself.
"Bitch if you don't stop crying over that little skinny white boy" she says causing me to crack a smile.
"Do we have to go out, why not just chill here" I say
"Nope we're going out, your gonna get hot and sexy and be the bad bitch you are" she says with authority.
"Fine but don't let me talk to any guys" I say smirking.
"Fine by me" she says
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We arrive to St. Andrews Hall looking hotter than ever. I instantly feel a slight nervousness hoping I don't see Marshall tonight. I just can't see him and I can't waste anymore tears on that man. We get through security easily and go sit at the bar. I'm only 19 but Deja is 21, which lets us get drinks. Deja begins making conversation with a guy next to her she seems to know.
I'm left looking around the bar. I turn around skimming the club seeing if there's anyone I know, I see a pair of blue eyes looking at me from across the club. Marshall. Of course I think to myself, of course he's here on a Friday night. I see that he's not by himself, no I see a blonde sitting next to him. Wow She's beautiful, wow he's already moved on. I turn back around looking at my drink and searching for Deja's attention.
"Deja"
"Deja he's here"
"Wait what" Deja turns away from her conversation to answer me.
"He's here and he's with another girl" I say getting upset. She skims the club before seeing him. I see her widen her eyes when she comes across him.
"What the fuck" she says seeming surprised.
"What.. what?" I ask
"That's Kim, is he really back with that cheating bitch?" She questions.
"Wait that's Kim?, he told me how much she hurt him... I can't believe him" I now say.
"We have to go, I can't stand being here seeing him with her" I saying finishing my drink and starting to get up from the bar.
"No! You have to show him what he's missing out on" Deja says.
"How though?" I ask her.
She grabs my hand and pulls me into the dance floor.
"Find a guy to dance with" she says
"What? No" I say frowning
"Do you want to make him jealous? Then find a dude and dance with him, I'm gonna dance other there" she says walking shortly away.
"Hey" I random guy says from behind me. I quickly turn around to see a handsome guy. He has brown curly hair and piercing green eyes I notice.
"Oh hey I'm just looking for my friend" I lie.
"Your really beautiful let's dance" he says ignoring what I just told him.
"Um yeah ok" I say thinking about what Deja told me. He gets behind me and I confidently start to grind on him. I don't now what got into me, I don't even know this guys name and I'm grinding on him. I become aware of my surroundings and notice Marshalls eyes on me looking angry. Kim's next to him what looks like her trying to get his attention. I don't feel guilty. I feel good showing him what he lost. I begin to grind feel the guy kissing my neck form behind. I look at Marshall while he does so.
Marshall gets up and angrily starts to approach me and the guy.
"Get the fuck off my girl dawg"
It's the cliff hanger for meeee
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Life Goes On
FanfictionThis story begins in the year 1995. When Marshall Mathers was not quite known as "Eminem" as he is today. Rachel meets him through mutual friends. They loose contact then find each other years later. What will happen next? Read to find out!
