Life Goes On

12

"What do you mean you still love me?" I asks Marshall seriously.

"I don't know... I guess I still have love for you after all these years" He tells me looking confused.

"Marshall... it's been 5 years since we've even really talked to each other" I say looking at him.

"I know but we had something special and we never really had the chance to make it serious" He says slowly coming closer to me.

"Marshall stop... I have a boyfriend" I tell him sternly. He just looks at me with those baby blue eyes of his.

"Do you still love me?" He ask me.

"It's doesn't matter because I've moved on now" I tell him avoiding eye contact. I guess I still have some type of love for him but I wouldn't allow myself to ever be with him.

"Yeah... I guess you right" He says looking at me.

"Can we be friends? Cause I've really missed being your friend" He tells me.

"Of course Marshall but nothing more than that" I tell him seriously.

"Yeah of course..." He says.

"But seriously I've missed you to... do you wanna come over for dinner sometime this week?" I ask him. I want to have a friendship with him.

"That'd be dope but would your dude get mad?" He asks looking confused.

"Nah he's pretty chill" I say to him. I don't think Jesse would care, he's never been the jealous type.

"Aight then... I'll let you know when I'm free" He tells me.

"Okay" I say to him and smile. We both go back to the party down stairs.

I walk back into the kitchen looking for Deja.

"What was that about?" Deja asks me as soon as I walk back into the kitchen.

"Bitch... first he confessed that he still loves me then I invited him to my place for dinner this week" I tell her. That probably sounded bad without all the details.

"What! What about Jess?" She asks me angrily.

"No I want us to be friends so I invited him over, Jess won't care... at least I hope" I finally tell her.

"Okay... so what him loving you? That doesn't sound very friendly" She says seriously.

"Well I told him that we can be friends but nothing more obviously" I now tell her confidently.

"I don't know girl... this sounds a little to messy" She says looking at me with concern.

"It will be fine" I tell her as I grab a drink and head back to the living room.
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It's been a few days since the party and I haven't heard from Marshall, I wonder if he'll be free this week to come over because honestly, I want to straighten things out between us. I want to ask him how his daughter is, why his marriage failed, and to apologize for completely blocking him out of my life.

"Hey baby are you okay?" Jesse asks me completely bringing back to reality.

"Oh yeah just thinking" I tell him as he pulls me in for a kiss. Jesse has always been so sweet and understanding, so hopefully he understands what I'm about to tell him.

"Okay, so how was the wedding?" Jesse now asks me. He just started feeling better last night so we haven't had much time to talk or spend time together.