Scripted | Nick Jonas x Kendall Jenner

F o u r t e e n

Second one! I wrote this on the same day as the previous chapter, I hope you like it. My teacher's kind of... yelling at the class that's in school... I'm glad I'm online lol

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So, rockabye baby, rockabye
I'm gonna rock you
Rockabye baby, don't you cry
Somebody's got you

Rockabye - Sean Paul ft. Anne-Marie

Nick Jonas's mind

(12:14 PM Sunday)

     I heard the door slam and winced. She might have been rude and intruding, but she was a bit right and I will pain in the ass to say that she was wrong.

     Well, she was. And that is why I have to take these pills every night to just... forget every shitty thing that's happening to me. It's like, turning off my humanity for a while...

     It makes pain hurt less than it's supposed to, and I'm used to that. Her, coming into my life suddenly and telling me to stop, is what I'm not used to. 

     I control my own life, I don't see other people even care to care about somebody else's life.

     Yeah, sure, I cared, I USED to, and I'm not gonna make the same mistake twice. Caring for someone is just giving them an opportunity to hurt you. I don't want myself to get hurt like I did years ago... If I could prevent that, I would.

     And I'm doing it right now. I'm preventing myself from getting hurt for the second time. You only fall once, and I did and it messed me up. 

     Burns a hole in your heart for the rest of your life, I thought, downing the bourbon. And that is why love's weak. It's a weakness, and it was mine. Not anymore.

     I slammed the cup on the table a little too hard and grabbed the end of the couch, trying to steady myself.

     Just when I was about to see the stars, I fell to the ground and quickly shut my eyes, hoping that this was better than the pills... I don't know why I'm still listening to her...

     She's bad for me... I don't know why I'm even...

     Oh, God...

     She's right, sometimes... They're always right... 

     My head was spinning, even though I was already on the ground, wasted with too many alcoholic drinks in my system... I was gonna regret this later...

     I swear if I wake up in the morning...

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Kendall Jenner's subconscious