Ups and Downs [ PewDiePie Fanfic ]

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Sad ending, don't hate me..
Thank you for reading Ups and Downs
I think it's time for me to create a sad ending. I understand if you hated it or me XD.

~Domsie
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Hi, I see you read my journal. A confusing and unrealistic story of mine, huh?

I had to let him go. He's happy with Marzia and his pugs now. I'm the cause of it and I feel proud.

Our red string was just a hallucination made by fate. Our red ribbon turned black and steel.

Not all love stories end up with a happy ending

Not all people live in a fairytale to get that happy ever after.

We didn't chose to be friends anymore or something more. It was time to move on.

I would like to thank you, Felix, for saving me.

You were a big part of this story, but your role is done.

I can't believe fate made me do this.. It made us meet, bond, became close friends then.. it all ended up here.. with nothing.

But, hey, everything happens for a reason. I missed my friends to be honest. I miss Minx's high pitched voice, laughing. I miss that bear hat from Ken. That aura and brother-like attitude of Cry.

I apologize to Minx too for not attending the wedding.. I'm a terrible friend.

So terrible that I left you all..

It's like.. nothing happened.

Those memories, ended up being shattered.

I'm still addicted to you..

I can't believe my foolish self for believing in fate.

I love you, Felix Arvid Ulf Kjellberg. I will remember our journey filled with ups and downs..

I tried so hard to make things alright and make us be together without any conflicts but not everything is possible.

Felix, I dedicate this book to you.

I may move-on someday but you'll remained tatooed in my heart. It can be covered by someone else's name but your were still there.

Maybe, just maybe, when we met again.. I hope we'll be friends and start all over again without any romance and feelings.

I'll miss you and see you on the other side someday. I am going to giveup fighting just like you gave me up..

One of the reasons why I didn't want you to be with me is that.. you'll never have a future with me..

Some people say that you're just one of those downs that came from my life, but for me you're one of the ups.

I guess now that you're gone, my luck got the best of me and let me die slowly.

I guess I AM a girl stabbed with badluck..

Thank you for the little present you gave. I'm going to wear it forever, even in my coffin. It sounds creepy but I told mom to never let this gift slip out of my finger. This ring.. is your last gift for me and the last gift I'll ever recieve.

I will store these memories in my head and heart until death. I remember looking up at your blue orbs when we met, Buying me a sweater, water guns, you let me in your house when my house got burned, disney land, Italy, pulling you and sliding through the stairs, The firework show.. just so many things.

I'll miss those sandy blonde hair and crystal blue orbs once I'll be seeing nothing but darkness once I am defeated by this.. *scribble*

I didn't want to put about my *scribble* at my early pages of my journal, afraid that someone might see it. Since this will be the last thing I'll be writing, I should tell you this.

This journal or my story isn't for everyone but I hope you loved reading my journey somehow. My journey with different people and different dilemas.

I love you, Felix Arvid ulf Kjellberg.

Thank you for being a part of my story.

But every story has to come to an end. It was my story's time to end.

I will miss all of the people in this journal. All of you will be remained forever in my own memories. All the fun times we had will never compare to anything.

Everything happens for a reason. Those problems are just obstacles in your life. Jump over it and you'll be able to reach the finish line.. and that finish line is your freedom and relief.

You were born for a reason so don't think that you shouldn't have been born.

You might not see it but you made people feel happy aswell. But not everybody. No one can be liked by everyone.

Like what my journal book told you, there are Ups and Downs. Just climb up and you'll be able to see your Ups in your life.

I did survived from the crazy things that had happened so you can too.

Burnt house? Don't cry and just sit down in the cold streets.

Lost your job? Don't go drinking.

Heartbroken? Do not cut. Move on because that person ain't meant to be yours.

Your family doesn't pay much attention? Don't go locking yourself in a room.

Stand up and you can survive this game called life.

If you can win in a simple video game, you can win in this game called life. Life is just any other games out there. Puzzle, Strategy, etc.

If you are depressed, don't go overboard with pills. Instead, find something that will make you happy.

Yeah, even if I did survived those obstacles, I still died in the end.

But I will die strong. I proved it that I could survive life. Like any other games, there will be the 'The End' or Game finished.

People call me as Bad-Luck-Eli or Fuck-up-Eli or The girl stabbed with badluck.. but atleast I fought the luck.

Yeah, I'll die.. I died fighting fate.

But I'm not making you feel bad but.. Everyone dies in the end.

Sadly, it's my time.

This will be my last trip to the hospital.

I will only be a memory in people's minds. Good and Bad ones.

Soon you will too be a memory, so make yourself ja good one.

I call this journal 'Ups and Downs'

This is Elianne Brooke and this will be the last page of my journal.

           The broken girl,

Elianne Brooke