Shameless (Hwang HyunJin)

03| When The Party's Over

Friday... my day off, and it felt strange. I spent all my life overworking myself on day and night shifts, and now this felt strange yet somewhat nice.

I let out a sigh, and I sipped on the glass of 85 red wine; I turned to see Adonis fast asleep on the couch. I flipped through the photo album; my life was miserable before college. Who am I kidding? It was a living hell; my father was an alcoholic who spent his nights out drinking after work. My mother was the type to care too much about everyone's opinion of the family's image. My brothers were pricks who would get sober and eventually relapse whenever their lips touched the rim of a beer bottle. My sister was busy trying to make every guy she's met her 'soulmate.'

And there were some moments of myself that I'm not proud of; I was once an addict. I spent every night partying, drinking, and joining lines with old boyfriends. I guess everyone in the Romańo family was a little fucked up; I poured another glass of wine. I turned to the family portfolio; we were very talented at being pretentious in front of the world. But behind the walls was a marriage that was falling apart, whose kids were addicts and having sex with every person they met. I am proud of one thing; I was never the type to sleep around. No, I was too proud of being a virgin that I made an oath to myself. No sex till marriage.

I let out another sigh, but this one was more gloomy; I closed the photo album and chunked it across the room. A small chuckle escaped my lips; I shook my head. I look at my phone ringing; I roll my eyes upon seeing Jungkook's name on the screen. I declined his call and opened iMessage; I was typing the words 'We're done...I'm breaking up with you.' A sigh of relief fell past my lips as I hit send; I got up from the dinner table and headed into my bedroom.  "They taught me how to live again," I sang softly as I drink my fourth glass of wine, "I just want to live a normal life," I whispered. I set the empty glass on the vanity drawer, grabbed the duffled bag, and walked downstairs.

I unlocked the basement door and walked down the stairs; I switched the light on. I was getting tipsy now; I turned on the Vinyl recorder. I looked through the Vinyl collection, placed the chosen Vinyl on the recorder, and set it to play. The familiar blues filled the basement as I set up the canvas and paints; I wrapped the apron and rolled my sleeves up.

Donna Summer's Love to love you baby, was playing at an average volume. I picked up the paintbrush and dipped it into the lavender purple; I began to spread the color across the canvas. Art is a way to escape old habits; I stepped back to see the canvas covered in purple. I grabbed the thin paintbrush and started drawing whatever came to mind; I got to the eyes and made them Monolid. I bit down on my bottom lip as I drew full lips; the V-shaped chin was a must in this art. The face was done; I washed the brush and dipped it in the brown paint, and started on the hair.

I let the paintbrush fall when the artwork made me realize how insane I must be; a small gasp leaves my lips as I step back and look at the drawing. "I've gone mad...how—why on earth? What the fuck was I thinking?" I muttered as I looked at the person on the canvas as none other than Hwang Hyunjin. I somehow managed to get every detail, but something was off about it. I bit my lip and looked at the eyes, "Mole...mole, his little mole." I whispered to myself and drew it. I set the brush down and step back again, this time to admire it.

His beauty in person was better than what I'd drawn; I burst out of my bubble of art as the front door was being banged on. I wipe my hands on the apron and take it off; I rush up the stairs. Adonis was barking and growling at the door, "Who is it, Adonis?" I teased and opened the front door. I sighed in frustration, "Are you serious, Alexie!?! You break up with me!?! Hello!" Jungkook asked while he sulked. "Oh, I'm serious about this, Jungkook; I meant it. We're over, so I don't really see your point in being here." I said, crossing my arms. Jungkook chuckles and runs his hand through his waves, "Why? Why are we over?" He asked. I let out a chuckle and chew on the inside of my cheek.

"Are you serious right now? Jungkook, you cheated—again!" I implied he sighed and gripped his hair. "It meant nothing to me, though," He said. I shook my head in disbelief, "It doesn't matter, Jungkook, you cheated!" I raise my voice. Adonis barks; Jungkook looks at him. "Adonis isn't the nice doggy as he seems, especially when it comes to pricks like you," I warned him. Jungkook groaned in frustration, "You cheated on me with Charlotte, and I can't forgive you again; I gave you two chances, Jungkook, and somehow you managed to blow it." I remarked on his groan.

Jungkook looks at me, "Leave before you piss off, Adonis." I said, holding onto the dog's collar. Adonis was ready to launch at Jungkook. "This isn't over." He said, leaving down the porch. I rolled my eyes and got Adonis inside the house, "It's okay, Adonis, he's gone." I assured him. Adonis whines and looks up at me, "Yes, I know you wanted to bite his head off, but you can't do that." I said, ruffling his hair. I sighed in relief and headed back down to the basement. God, it wasn't this hard when I dumped a guy. Why is Jungkook overreacting?