A knot too tight

Part 8-James

I tried to stay awake but the alcohol was already making me droopy.
"Promise you won't leave Allie, that I will see you when I wake up" I asked before I could lose consciousness.
"I promise.. I promise" She said, soothing me with kisses.
Not ready to take any chances I trapped Allie under me, going to sleep, cocooned in her sweet bosom. I frowned trying to count her heartbeats which wouldn't come. That was the last thing on my mind when my lost my grip on reality.
After the best sleep I ever had in my life,I woke panicking afraid I won't see Allie again. I surged out of bed ready to tear the world down, but stopped right there in my tracks seeing a sleep mussed Allie looking at me like I had gone crazy which I actually would have if she hadn't been there.
I sagged down in relief, taking her in my arms, breathing her in, kissing her already swollen lips.
She let me be... But when I tried to pull her down with me on bed, she pushed me off scrambling away from me.
"James, I have something important to discuss with you."
  I lunged at her but she remained out of reach despite all my efforts. I growled frustrated.

"Come here Allie. If you no what's good for you. If you surrender before I catch you I promise I will go easy on you"

"Stop your bullying,.. You... You.. "

I always found it adorable her inability to swear and it wasn't any less endearing now but I knew what was good for me so I tried to stop the grin before it break out over my face.

"Now..now.You come here Allie, you can talk all you want,once you are sitting on my lap"

"Don't mess with me James, I am serious. Once you listen to all that I have to say. We can do anything you want. "

She blushed saying the last part. Finally I gave in to get this 'talk' over with. I nodded folding my arms leaning against the headboard.

"James, you do know that I am dead right. I don't why I am still here or how long this is gonna last. But before I have to go where ever the other souls  have gone, I want you to pull your self through. So that when it's time for the final goodbye I can rest peacefully "

I tried not to show my anger and grief or the hopelessness her words had brought me. I simply nodded holding out my hand. She lingered for a moment before sighing and placing her hands in mine. I pulled her to me, tackling her to the bed.
I caught her jaw between my fingers, slightly squeezing to remind myself that she's still here.
"Allie if you for a moment think that I am going to be okay without you, you have another thing coming. I am never going to get over you and I don't want you to think that you can make me. If you leave me I will stop living as well"

She tried to protest, but I shut her off with a kiss. I knew for sure that I couldn't live without her. I wasn't wasting my time with her over things that  were never going to happen.