A knot too tight

Part 9-Allie

I knew it wouldn't be easy but his utter conviction had me doubting myself. If the situations where reversed could I have survived without him? Probably I could have. Because I had never let myself fall in love with him, never believed that he was my happy ever after, convinced that James was the one who was cheating me out of one.
God show me a way, any way that could absolve me of this guilt.
I disentangled myself from him, snooping away, ready to make the best out of this situation. I made my way to the kitchen humming to myself as I made breakfast. The phone rang and I absently answered it. It was my brother, I was so happy to hear his voice that I cried.

"Hello, how are you my favorite brother. How's mom and dad "

I asked waiting for his answer, but alas he couldn't hear me I realized my heart breaking.
I replaced the receiver, going to wake James armed with fresh coffee.

" Wakey... Wakey.. Honey... Rise and shine"

I shook him, he rolled over with a lazy grin, throwing his arm around my waist.

"This is getting old James, now up you go"

I shoved the coffee in his face hoping that it would entice him to comply.
It was a struggle but I got him out of the bed into the shower. And then he refused to go in unless I went with him.

Finally freshly showered and smirking at me from across the table I couldn't find the broken man from yesterday anywhere in his person.
He was shoving down the breakfast I made without a care in this world.

"This is the best food I have ever had,if I had known you were such a terrific cook I would have made you cook for me sooner. "

I rolled my eyes at his antics. When a very beautiful woman walked in to the room like she owned the place.

I was immediately jealous, but this woman could be my one chance to make him move on,have a normal family like he always wanted.

I startled James, when I suddenly squeezed his hand begging him to me polite. Before taking off.