A knot too tight

Part 7-Allie

I didn't like it. Not even a bit. After John left James had sat in that chair like he had nothing better to do. He was deep in thought, later he made his way to his office and seemed to be lost in some paperwork and I had thought that it was a good sign. But alas how wrong I was. It wasn't a sign of him getting back on track rather it was his preparation to leave it altogether.
Oh, no I can't just be a passive observer when he had a gun poised over his head ready to take his own life.
"James stop it " I screamed, grabbing hold of his hand and removing the gun from it. It was easy to accomplish since he was in shock after seeing me.
"Don't you ever dare to do that again" I huffed shaking him for all I was worth.

"Allie, you didn't die? " he said cupping my face, a silly grin breaking across his face.
I scowled "of course I did you idiot, you saw them bury me didn't you. I am a ghost now. " I said.
I don't think he cared what I was, he didn't even look like he was listening to me.Soon he drew me to him, smothering me with kisses. I tried to push him back,
"Wait James, let me make one thing clear. " I said trying to lift his face from the crook of my neck. It was impossible, to calm him so I decided to wait for him to ask the questions himself, which didn't look like it was going to happen anytime soon.
Later.... after a very very long time... Our limbs in a tangle.. I tried to get him to concentrate on what I had to say to no avail, the fact that i was now dead didn't deter him one bit from consummating our marriage.
I blushed trying to hide under the sheets, only to have my efforts thwarted by a growling James.
I gave up again, trying to enjoy this moment despite my embarrassment.
"What is this?" he asked concentrating his kisses on an old scar on right leg.
"It's.. a... a... I think it was when I fell out of my bicycle...whe... When i was.. little. " It was hard to form a coherent thought seeing him looming over me.
Being a ghost hasn't made me immune to blushing, I realized and no super powers either
. In fact it didn't feel all tha different from being alive.
"Who are you thinking about? " he whispered against my ears, nipping my skin in reprimand.
I wanted to roll my eyes, but old habits die hard and I was soon trying my best to soothe his jealousy.
"You know no one else to think about , never have and never will.... Other than you, of course"
"Then you better act like that Allie" his voice was a rough growl as he threatened me.

"God!.. James... You are my one and only in every ways... My first kiss, my first... You know all that.. I am not going to spell this out for you tyrannical ass again" I said exasperated.

Maybe it's because he was drunk but his focus seemed to be on the least important of things at a time like this.