Rehearsals were super awkward today. I had to act like nothing happened with Kalin. I even kissed Myles right in front of Kalin so that he could get the message. I just hope Myles doesn't find out.
"Hey Ashlynn," Myles says.
"What's up?" I respond.
"Nothing. Just chilling here with Jake,"
"You seem a little tense. Are you okay?"
"Yeah. Just a little tired."
"You miss your grandmother, don't you?"
I nod and lean into Myles.
~
Jack Gilinsky is so hot. So hot. Hot. But he's kissing Madison. They're a cute couple, but its girls like her who make me feel so insecure.
"You know, if you want to watch porn, I can show you something better thank Gilinsky and Maddie"
Its Jack. Johnson.
"Hey Jack...do you know who I am?'
He nods.
"Wow. This is crazy. I have a poster of you in my room."
"That's cute,"
I smile.
He asks me why I'm not friends with any of the girls.
"All they talk about is partying and boys and makeup. I don't really care if Telea thinks Nash is cute."
"Telea thinks Nash is cute??" Johnson asks.
I nod and he laughs.
"Wanna know a secret?" Johnson asks.
I nod.
'I feel the same way...I'm never going to be as attractive as Jack. I wont get as much attention. I bet you prefer Jack too."
"Dude, I'm dating Myles instead of Kalin. What do you think?"
"I wish there were more girls like you...ones who wouldn't use me to get to Jack or for fame."
Johnson and I chill for the rest of the day. I've made my first friend.
~
"You and Myles haven't done anything?"
"No Jack, we've just kind of made out. There was one time when I told him I was ready, but he knew I didn't mean it. That was a weird day."
Kalin walks into the room.
"Ashlynn we're going to leave for the show in 5 minutes,"
I nod my head while avoiding eye contact.
"Hey Jacks calling me," Johnson says while standing up. "We'll be at the show. Good luck."
Myles: babeeeee
Me: babeeeeeee
Myles: i haven't spoken to you all day. My mom asked me to do something for her. What were you doing?
Me: just hanging out with Johnson.
Me: he's really cool
Me: maybe I should have went to the jack and jack concert instead of yours ;)
Myles: you know I'm the cuter one
Me: you're more than cute
Myles: oh really?
Me: yep. The things I think about doing with you....
Myles: playing cards?
Me: you're an idiot
Myles: but I'm your idiot.
