I can't do this. I can't go on. Its too much.
Okay.
Calm down.
You should let me be your boyfriend
Calm down and go outside.
I just wanna love you
Calm yourself.
I pause my iPod and walk closer to the curtains.
"Alright guys, who's excited for Kalin and Myles??" the host asks.
The crowd screams.
"What about Myles' girlfriend? Give it up for Ashlynn!!!!"
So many people.
I take the mic.
"Hi guys!"
The crowd cheers.
"Few of you may know me from YouTube...others may have seen candids of me and Myles."
I look into the crowd.
"Hey over there, stop pushing. It hurts the people in the front....okay so I'm a fan. I literally went to the NYC CFC show, but somehow I'm here. I'm here because I believed in myself and found people who believe in me too. So today, I'm going to sing California by Jack and Jack "
~
"Babe you did great," Myles says while spinning me around.
"Yeah good job," Skate says.
Skate, Sammy, and the Jacks all came.
"You killed our song," Johnson says before hugging me. "Great job."
Kalin winks at me and I ignore it.
One Facebook notification
I ignore it
Two Facebook notifications
I open it
How did you get to sing with them?? You probably threatened to kill them or something.
I saw you with all those guys. Slut.
Myles is mine back tf off.
The last one was from twitter. Ouch.
What do they want me to do? Die? It was an accident, it haunts me every day.
I take Myles' hand and pull him away from the group.
~
"Why are we in your dressing room?"
I show him my phone.
He looks furious as he scrolls through the hate comments. Myles doesn't say anything. He just hugs me and kisses my forehead. Hug. Kiss. Hug. Kiss.
This has to stop.
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"Yeah Grandma, I'm going to start an anti bullying campaign for school," I say through the phone.
