Lost thoughts || Ranboo angst

December

Song of the chapter: hold on by chord overstreet

If there's one song in this entire book that you should listen to for a chapter, it's this one. Trust me, it,l just be better

⚠️trigger warning: mentions of death, mentions of missing things in the world, letters, final goodbyes, pills⚠️

Holy shit how the fuck are we on the last chapter?!!!! Anyways, here's your angst you signed up for :) in some parts there are lots of pov changes just saying. Oh one last thing, THERE ARE TWO ENDINGS! One of them he is successful and the other he is not. They're both being posted at the same time and are the exact same except for the end (you can read both if you'd like).

December 20

Six more days. Six more days and I could finally be done with everything. No more stress, no more worries, I'll be gone.

Yeah, I was going to miss everyone but they'd be better off without me.

I found a spot in the closet I can sit in and no one would disturb me, so that's where I was now. I had all of my paper and I was ready to start writing my notes. Over the past month I'd bought gifts as well as giving each person something of mine that they could remember me by

Thinking back, this year was probably the best year of my life. I got to do so many new things and I finally got to meet 2 of my best friends, as well as find Ender again! So many experiences that I loved.

Wilbur's POV

Only 5 more days untill Christmas! I'd been planning gifts for everyone for months! I hope that everyone loves everything they got.

Ranboo had been acting kind of off lately, after his giant panic attack he sort of distanced himself from everyone but he's been more social lately than he ever has been before. Maybe he feels bad about not doing stuff with us, who knows.

Tubbo's POV

Ranboo was in the closet again

I didn't want to disturb him in case he was doing Christmas stuff, but he'd been in there a lot lately and I was getting a bit worried. No one spends that much time wrapping Christmas presents

Ranboo's POV

I finished wrapping the last gift. Now all I needed to do was wrote the notes which I wasn't excited for but I knew I had to do it

December 24

Ranboo's POV

3:08pm

"Guys let's watch a Christmas movie! We can go out and get a bunch of snacks" Karl suggested, and we all got ready to go to the store

Last movie I'll ever watch

"Sapnap? Tomorrow can we binge watch a bunch of my little pony episodes?" I asked

"Yeah of course! Any reason? Also, Ender is coming over later tonight and is going to stay for a couple of days"

"No, no reason. I just think it would be fun"

He gave me a smile before walking off to get his movie snacks

I need to make sure I do everything today and tomorrow because I won't get another chance

6:50pm

The movie was over

"What do we want for dinner?" George asked

"Pizza!" Tommy and Tubbo screamed at the same time, making everyone laugh