Want to kill {James Barnes}

Part 9- Not ready

After what felt like days, a nurse finally comes out to the waiting room "James?" As I stood straight up from my chair, scared of what she was going to say. "She's in recovery, it wasn't that deep, she is resting, but you can go and see her" and she walks me to Becks room.

Back to Beck—
As I see nothing but darkness there is a light at the end, I go through it and I'm back at the sunflower field with my mother but not as a little girl as me now. She looks at me with a confused face, "hunny, it's not your time" as she lets go of my hand, and I went back to the darkness but started to flutter my eyes open.
Looking up at the ceiling, as I lift up my head, throbbing but doesn't hurt. I see James in the chair next to me, sleeping. What a cutie, I don't even remember what happened, why am I in the hospital? As I sit myself up to get my comfortable, my left side of my stomach starting hurting. I look down at it seeing the knife wound, and then it hit me, I remember everything now, all the pain came flowing back. "Ah" as James wakes up hearing me moving around.

"Beck, hey take a easy, you're still recovering" as he grabs my hand on the bed as he leans forward from his chair. "God, I thought I lost you" as he gets really upset, and about to cry. "But you saved me, if you weren't there I wouldn't be here" as I rub his hand. He leans down and gives my hand a kiss, "I need a doctor though my side is starting to hurt" as I'm struggling to stay still. James gets up from his chair and pushes the help button for someone to come.

A few minutes go by and someone finally comes in "hi, I'm doctor Russo, how are you feeling?" As she is going over my paper work looking up at me. "Umm just my side is starting to hurt, but other than that I'm alright" giving her a comfort smile. "Good, that's good, I'll just give you so antibiotic to help with the pain" she walks up to me checking my vitals. "How long will she need to be in the hospital?" As I look at James as he is giving the doctor a sad look, especially with his eyes. "Oh just three more day at most, so that he side can get healed, but other than that she is doing great" as she looks at me "you're doing great" giving me a smile, making me feel a little better.

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The last day being at the hospital was the happiest day ever, not like I didn't have a good time, James was there by my side no matter what and taking care of me. But I wish I was in my own bed, cuddling with him, holding him not letting go. "I got a question, and I understand if you think it's too fast" as he holds both of my hands into his, locking his eyes with mine. "What happened to you made me realize, life is too short sometimes, so....do you want to move in with me?" Giving me a worried smile, hoping I don't say no. My stomach filling up with joy and butterflies.

"Umm, you know what, yes I would love to move in with you" as he lifts me up, both of us smiling, giving each other kisses. "Alright and I have another surprise for you when you get to the parking lot" as he gives me a wink. As we got out of the hospital I see a baby blue ford bronco with a bow on the hood. "Oh my god, James what is this?" As I turn and see him giving me a big smile, as he kisses my forehead. "What do you mean, this is yours" as he points to the car with his hand.

"I figure that you need it so I don't keep driving you everywhere, you're a big girl you know" as I give him a sarcastic smile and he gives me a wink. "James you didn't have to, but thank you I love it, I love you" as I pull him down for a kiss and didn't want to let go. "We'll first thing is first, we need to go to your house, start packing" as I get inside the bronco and he hands me the keys, I was so happy that I got my own car, thanks to him. This handsome man sitting next to me in the passenger seat.

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As we got everything packed up, I still was struggling with my final suitcase, I literally had to get on my bed but my knees in the bag for it to zip shut. "What are you doing?" As James is standing in the doorframe chuckling at me, because how ridiculous I look. "Oh nothing" as I'm jumping on it now, I started chuckling at myself because I can just see what James's seeing. Finally got it zip up, "ok I'm ready" as we head to the front door, I turn and look around at the final moment, I did have good memories here. But I know there's always going to be changes some time. "Alright let's go" as I look at James and give him a soft kiss on the cheek.

As he is driving us to his house, well I should say our house now, he was holding me hand the whole time, making me smile and giving me butterflies like the beginning. I can never get enough of feeling the way I do when I first met him.

As we finished unpacking my things, there is a knock on James's door. "Were you expecting someone?" Giving him a question look, he looks at me with the same look, so I guess that answers my question. "Umm, no but I'm going to go look, finish putting your things away" as he gives me a quick kiss on the lips and goes downstairs.

James's pov—
I don't know who is at my door right now? I mean it could be Steve...no, he could've just called. Who is it? As I get down the steps to the door I look through the peephole, it is a female in her mid 30s maybe, with long black hair. I open the door and she look at me, giving me a look like she wasn't expecting me to open the door. "Hi, I'm sorry I must have the wrong house" before she could leave, I want to see if I can help her. "What or who are you looking for?" As I give her a soft smile, to show she isn't wasting my time. "I'm looking for my sister, Beck, do you know who that is or where I can find her?" As I keep my eyes on her, surprise at what she just said. As I hear Beck come up behind me.
"Hey, who is at the door?" As she is beside me looking at the girl too. "Are you Beck?" As she looks away from me to Beck. "Y-Yes, why?" Glancing at both me and the woman. "I'm Eleanor, your sister" as I look down at Beck, she was just as shocked as I am.