Want to kill {James Barnes}

Part 3- The Moment

Monday morning is the best feeling in the world, most people wouldn't agree, but I get to see him today. So nothing else matters to me.

As I'm waking up feeling the sunshine on my peachy skin, I went to my bathroom to start a shower to wake me up a little more than I am. As I step in, it is amazing just the right temperature going all over my body, I could feel hands, but not just any hands, James's hands going up and down my back on my spine.

As I open my eyes to look, nobody is there. I'm imagining him now? Wow he has done something to me for sure, but deep down I don't know what I am feeling. I've never felt this way before, but I'm not going to lie I like it a lot.

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As I'm walking in, going straight to the elevators I started to feel nervous again, maybe because he makes me feel some type of way and I can't get enough. As the elevator doors open Steve again is waiting for me. "Nice to see you again" as he give me a smile pointing me out of the elevator with his hands.

"It's good to see you to Steve" giving him a little smile. He takes me into a room right next to James's office, it has a desk and a bookshelf right next to it, big enough to only fit me in it. "This is your office, here is your paperwork" as he hands me a ton of files.

We walk up to the desk and I sit down in front of the computer, he reaches his right arm over me and is showing me what I need to be doing. "Looks easy enough" as I glance at him and smile. Then I look up to see James is in the doorway. He gives Steve a nod, that he nod back walking out leaving just me and him.

"So, settled in?" As he looks at me, and smiles. It is the cutest thing I've ever seen when he smiles because he would crunch up his nose, and I couldn't get enough of it. "Yeah, thank you again" as I look down and feeling up my desk, wishing it was him. "So I was wondering, if you would like to have lunch with me later?" As he moves a little more into the room.

I look up at him, surprise he would be interested in me. "Umm y-yeah that sounds amazing" giving him a soft smile. "Great, come back around 12 to get you" as he points at me walking out. "I'll be here" loud enough for him to here me, as I can hear his chuckle, which gave me butterflies.

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A couple hours later, it was finally turning 12 as I'm waiting for the the final minute to come, looking desperately at my computer, not noticing James is there looking at me. "What are you do—"

"Ahh" as I jumped back into my chair. He couldn't help but laugh, first time I've ever heard him laugh and it was even cuter. "You can't do that James, almost gave me a heart attack" holding onto my chest. "Sorry I was just waiting for you" as he pulls himself together. I get up and grab my jacket, and we head down to his car.

As we are heading to wherever he is taking us, I was leaning against the window trying to figure out what I am feeling, that makes it so damn good. Then I started to have flashbacks about my Dad. Honey it's ok. You will always be daddy's little girl. This will be our little secret. Stop moving it only makes it worse. As I am coming back to reality I could feel my eyes fill up, and a tear left my face.

Before I could wipe it away before James saw, it is too late. He glances over me and see that I'm crying about something, knowing it is about my past because the last time. He carefully grabs my hand into his rubbing it nice and firm, telling me it's ok to cry. I didn't even notice it until I look away from the window.

I wanted to pull away, and be scared knowing I'm scared to be touched but this felt so nice and I didn't want it to stop. "I can stop if you want me to" as he glances over to make sure I'm ok. "No it feels nice" as I put my other hand on top of his.

We get to the restaurant and it has a beautiful outdoor seating. As we take our seats, I was looking at the menu and all I can say is wow. "You don't have to worry about the prices, I'm paying for you" he says in a deep tone, sweet voice. I put the menu down and already know what I want.

"What can I get you both" as the waitress is waiting for us to order. "I'll just take the chicken tender salad with extra thousand island" as I hand her my menu. As she looks at James waiting for him to tell her what he wants. "I'll have the same, but with extra ranch" as he gives her the menu but staring at me, not breaking eye contact.

I could feel this sexual tension between us, is that even possible? I mean I never really lost my virginity, the real way anyways. As we got our food, and ate. I look at my phone and it is 2:30pm "I'm ready whenever you are" giving him a seductive smile. "Yea, let's go" standing up, taking out his hand to lift me out of my seat.
As we are heading back, I am texting Scott and Jax about our movie night tonight.

Scott: sorry girl we can't make it, we have to stay after hours at the shop.
Jax: yeah, we feel so bad, we promise we will make it up to you ;)

As I let out sigh, James looks at me "what's up?" As I put my phone down looking at him. "Oh it's nothing, I was just going to have a movie night with my friends, but they can't make it" as I gave him an side smile, not really happy.

Then it hit me, the chance for me to get to know him, to get closer to him. "Umm would you like to come over and have a movie night with me" as I'm being shy and kinda hiding my face on my shoulder, even blushing a little. He gives me a smile and a little chuckle under his breath "I would love to" putting out his hand out so I could put my hand into his.

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A couple hours go by as I'm still filling out paperwork I look to see what time it is 7:00pm. Ugh is all I am feeling, I am so ready to go home. As I continue, I hear a soft knock on the door, I look up to see James again looking so damn hot as ever in the doorway. "Ready" looking up at him confused on why he said that. "Umm still doing paperwork, needs to get done, or the boss will be an ass about it" giving him a smirk looking down at the paperwork.

"Well you can tell him to fuck off" as he walks in and leans on my desk. I am getting butterflies about everything he does and it's driving me insane. "Alright, but if I get fired I'm blaming you" getting up from my chair, putting on my jacket. We both laughed and headed to my apartment.

As we walk into my apartment I threw my keys in the dish by the door. "I like this, this is nice" as he takes off his coat to hang it up. "Thank you, make yourself at home" as I'm in the kitchen getting us wine, and popcorn. He sits on the couch watching from a distance. "You know it's not nice to stare" looking up, using his own words against him, he lets out a chuckle, as he leans back on the couch.

I walk into the living room turn on the tv so he could find something for us to watch, I'm not picky so whatever he picks I would enjoy it. I bring the wine glasses to the table and popcorn, to get it all set up for us. I started to fill our glasses, as I glance over to him, I'm not going to lie he smells so good. I give him a smile "mmh" he looks at me catching me staring at him again "what?"

I couldn't say anything, I want to kiss him so bad, but I didn't know how, or what I am doing. He leans forward to me halfway, making me do the other half as I lean forward are noses were touching and I could feel his heavy breathing against my lips, but before I could give him a kiss there was a knock on my door, breaking up our tension.

"Must be my friends, coming to apologize" as I smile, I get up walking to the door and opened it, frozen. I couldn't move, because I am traumatize on who I saw standing in my doorway. "Hey B, I missed you so much" the old rusty voice that came out of him, he even looks the same after I left.....my Dad, and the past kept floating back into my brain.