Someone We Used to Be

But Christmas is

Rosé looks over at Jisoo and smiled as the girl handed her flowers,

"You did great!"

Rosé sat in her room as she looked over at her guitar that Jisoo once gifted her, the cursed guitar. She looks away as she couldn't care to look at it,

"Why aren't you playing?" She hears as she looks back at it seeing Jisoo holding it, "You always play when I'm here."

"You aren't," Rosé says sharply as Jisoo nods, "how can I? You're gone..."

"Just because I'm gone doesn't mean you can use it as an excuse." Jisoo says, "You out of-"

"That's it! I'm the one out of everyone that is affected the most!" Rosé snaps, "who had to help you? Who was there for you-"

"Just because I'm dead doesn't mean you put everything on hold, Chaeyoung." Jisoo glared at her, "You think Jennie and Lisa are putting there's?"

"No-"

"Then stop." Jisoo says, "Live your life because you can't hold yours back." Jisoo sat beside her, "I know it's hard but you know you have to."

"I'm going to go." She walks out,

Jisoo hands her head low as it wasn't the first-

"Why are you getting mad at me?!" Jisoo shouts as Chaeyoung glared at her,

"If you weren't flirting with her-"

"You're jealous?" She asks in disbelief as Chaeyoung rolled her eyes walks out of her room, she rushed to the window seeing the girl with the guitar outside her driveway, and swings it down to smash it.

She didn't know where she was going, she felt the guilt again but this time she brushed it off. She looks over the railing of the Han river and smiled, luckily she was close by here.

"What special about this?" Lisa asks as they all looked over,

"It's peaceful." Jennie answered, "sometimes when you can't handle it anymore... You go here and let it all out."

"Do you do that Unnie?" Lisa asked Jisoo,

"No"

She closed her eyes and hangs her head, sometimes we all deserve a break.

Her hand gripped tightly onto the railing before it slipped out, she screamed. Screaming loudly and angrily at everything, all the emotions she felt were put into one.

She stopped before tears fell into the concrete, She looks at her hands before crying not caring if anyone saw.

Rosé looks over at Jisoo before smiling to herself, Jisoo looks back with the same expression.

"I love you." She says it was too late.

"I love you, damn it." She made a fist before looking ahead at the river, "I loved you so much."

"Oh, your dating?" She picks at her nail polish as Jisoo nods,

"I decided to give it a shot" the girl shrugged, she sat on the couch waiting for Jennie and Lisa to bring the food.

"We're back!" Lisa says holding the food as she lost her appetite already.

"I love you." I love you too.

"I'm sorry, I'm so fucking sorry." She says before unclenching her first that now drew blood.

"I wish I known."

Suddenly a small little snowflake drops from the sky and right in front of her, looking up now, she sees the snow cloud before smiling softly.

I love the snow.

Jisoo loved the snow,

And she did too.