alpha betas (x reader) one-shots

✦ eddie ─ confused feelings

━━━━      the beginning and middle part of the one-shot is angst kinda, so heads up!

──  romantic?

They say that if a crush lasts more than a certain amount of months, then it's love - You're in love with that person.

The thought puzzled you. If that's the case, then why did you fall for different people? You develop a ”crush” on someone because they're your ”type”, what is your type? Is there a difference between admiration and love? Why are romantic feelings so perplexing?

Why are feelings, in general, so confusing?

You always imagined moving on to be easy - Just don't think of that person or subject, have several distractions. It probably would've been easy if you didn't happen to see the exact brunette male nearly all the time. A given, considering you and the rest of Alpha Team moved into a house provided by Allison.

He's skilled, strong, cute, the perfect leader figure in your mind. He wasn't the brightest at times but that flaw often flies over your head anyway. You weren't the person he had eyes on, though, that much was obvious. You discreetly observed Ruby from time to time, attempting to see what she had that you didn't. She was just doing what she's supposed to... Was it her figure? the way she spoke? her looks? her attitude? No matter how much you tried, you just couldn't see what it was and you admittedly expected that outcome.

Very clearly, the people around you were talented in certain hobbies and you only see the best of the best from a person you like or admire. Whatever Ruby had that made Eddie like her so much, that's fine. You can accept that, eventually... you hope...

Absentmindedly moving the [spoon/straw] around in your cup of drink, your gaze on it, staring disinterested. "Why'd I get this drink again?" You muttered, pausing your movement.

"...You said you wanted it?" A voice answered and you jolt, forgetting you were in the kitchen. Snapping back into reality, your attention lands on the male. "(Y/n), are you okay?" Questioned Buck, concern etched onto his face.

"I'm fine." You finally took a sip of your drink before continuing, "Just exhausted and..." and? what the hell am I going to say after that??

"...You sure you're fine? I'm horrible with this stuff, but I can listen if you want..."

Giving him an attempt of a smile, you're about to take up on his offer when Eddie walked into the kitchen. Your mood soured even more and Buck must've noticed because his mouth formed an ””..

"Morning, Buck..." Eddie greeted and his eyes landed on your sitting figure. You might've been seeing things but it looked like his face light up. "Oh- Morning, (Y/n)!" He gave a small wave your way and you reluctantly returned the gesture. Reluctantly because you didn't want to do anything regarding him currently and because if you didn't greet back, that would be rude and you'd feel somewhat guilty.

Rising from your seat by the counter, you grabbed your cup and made your way upstairs, directly to your room.

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You've noted a few things to do that might ”help” you on how to get over the tall brunette. It was a short suggestions list, really.

Ignore him... Help him woo Ruby... Find an interest on someone else...

Alright! There were only three suggestions and they're all mentally and emotionally damaging. Erasing the words on the notes app, you shortly put your phone down beside you on your bed. You could've tried the third option but if you force yourself to like someone else and lead them on, you'll just hurt yourself and that person. It's just not going to end well.

There's your other hobbies you could do to distract yourself in the meantime - Doodling, reading, listening to music... But in all honesty, you didn't have the energy to engage in any of those activities, even if you just woke up two hours ago. You didn't see it in yourself to do anything today besides sleeping.

"Might as well." moving your phone onto the bedside table, you adjust the pillow on the bed and right as you're about to lie down, someone had to knock on the door. You heaved an irritated sigh before slowly stepping towards the door. Unlocking it, you twist the knob and only open it a tad bit, peeking from behind the wood, you see that it's the man himself.

Putting on some poker face (that he likely didn't see because the lights were off in your room), you get ready to close the door but Eddie placed his foot in the way, preventing you from shutting him out. Cliché. "Wait, wait, hold on." He starts, sounding desperate, and you can't help but be interested on what he has to say. You push the door open a tad bit more and shyly look at him, he gives a tiny smile at your interest. "So... Um, Buck told me that..."

Eyes widening in fear, hoping that beanie bastard didn't tell him much. "It's... He said that I might be bothering you." He began and you sheepishly avert your gaze. "And I- I just wanted to know if I was causing you problems. I worry about you... a lot more than I should, I think." Eddie mumbled the last part to himself, his face getting warmer out of embarrassment as he began overanalyzing what he just quietly said.

"No... you're not causing me any trouble or anything." Looking at him from the corner of your vision, he blinked in surprise upon hearing how quiet your voice is so he puts the back of his hand against your forehead to check if you're sick and the action makes you realize the beads of sweat rolling down the sides of your face. "...What are you doing?"

Eddie retracts his touch after hearing your question, "Just thought you were sick." Him talking and spending time with you was rare, moments like these you treasure and think back on a lot, his admittance and actions of worry warmed your heart. The brunette snickered slightly, "What's with that look?"

You let out a yelp before turning your head away. "Nothing, nothing!"

"Suree." he pats the top of your head before turning around to leave. "...Want to play video games or watch a movie later in the afternoon?"

Nervously looking back at his figure, you hesitate to answer. Well, I would love to spend time with him! But that would make me want to spend even more time with him. If I decline, I'll just feel bad anyway...

"Yeah!" Huh. Realizing how you answered, you hurriedly added in a few more words. "Well, I mean, um... Is anybody else invited?"

"It's just us. Surprisingly enough the rest of the guys said they were busy and well... It's obvious what Ruby replied with."

"That's-- I'm looking forward to the hang out." You weren't even sure if that was the right response but Eddie nodded anyway.

"Mhm, same here. meet you in the recreational room then." He waved goodbye and sent a playful wink (that he also seemed to question) before walking to what seemed to be the direction of his room.

Swiftly closing your bedroom door, you pressed your back against it and slid down until you were sitting on the floor. "Fuck." You press your face in your hands, still feeling warmth. "I need to stop chasing him."