her alpha || teen wolf

Chapter 8: Mistakes

Derek got out of his car and walked towards me, cornering me to my car.

"I haven't ever labeled myself as "obsessive" or "possessive" in any of my relationships, but you, you ruined me, Athena. We weren't and aren't even together and I just feel like I need to have a hold on you, and I can't be feeling like that anymore" He said as his eyes started to glow red.

I didn't know what was going on, was he trying to kill me? Threaten me? Find a way to get rid of me? I had no clue. I tried to control myself and leave my eyes normal because the students that were eating outside could see me.

Derek and I weren't even a foot apart, he just kept getting closer to me, I felt the heat from my engine on the back of my leg.

'Then stop feeling that way. Simple as that' I said, taking a deep breath so the now coming anger wouldn't make me do anything I would regret.

"I can't just stop, Athena, you have me in a chokehold and there's no way out of it, that's why i'm here right now, i'm ending this the same way it started" He said as I opened my eyes and looked at him.

'And how did it start? What are you going to do? You gonna kill me? Because this all started with a bite' I asked as my eyes lit up red.

His eyes then lit up the same color as mine.

"I can't and wont kill you, and you know that", he said, putting his hand on mine, against the trunk of my car.

I looked at our hands then back at him. I had a feeling, not one I could explain though. I still felt for him, that wouldn't go away for a while, but this, this was the only time we were talking and not arguing, and it brought back the way I used to feel for a split second.

He then put his hand on the side of my waist, Erica was watching in shock, and the girls were in the car listening to music.

Derek then put his other hand on the other side of my waist and i allowed it. He then pulled me closer to him, our faces inches apart.

He made me feel something I never have before, as much as I hate to admit it. Being with him was wrong of me, what I am doing right now is wrong, but no matter how wrong it is, i'm still here.

He leaned closer to me, I did the same, I know i'll regret this later but I really don't care anymore.

He kissed me, and I stupidly kissed back. He tried to deepen the kiss by pulling my waist closer to him. I let him do that but then I realized how messed up all of this was. I pulled away and slightly pushed him back.

'We're not doing this again' I said as I looked at Erica, who was now out of Derek's car.

"You know, Athena, he only wants you to sleep with you, I thought it was obvious that that's the thing he wants from you. He always tries to go further than kissing, it's embarrassing for you to think he actually wants something pure with you." Erica said, laughing.

I didn't even know what to say. I never wanted to admit it, but she was probably right. I've never thought of it in the way she did.

"So in all reality, he's using you" She said, getting back into the car.

"I swear that's not how it is, you know how Erica acts, Athena, don't listen to her" Derek said, looking at me.

'Goodbye Derek' I said as I got in my car.

He looked at me and just backed up into his car and drove off. I sat in the drivers seat and the girls started asking me nonstop questions.

"Seems like that was the end of Derek and Athena", Malia said, with a sad look on her face.

'Him and I ended a long time ago, Malia' I said, starting the car.

"I still think you two have something, you two have fought and said your goodbyes multiple times, and you always make your ways back to each other" Allison said.

"I still think you and Isaac would be a good couple, Isaac is a way better guy than Derek" Lydia said, looking at me through the mirror.

'I just met him, Lydia, and Allison, I think it's actually over this time, Erica was reasonable, I wouldn't be shocked if Derek was using me' I sighed and pulled out of the school parking lot.

"I don't think he would do that, but no matter what, whether or not you and Derek get back together, i'll always support your decision", Allison said, sitting back in her seat.

I didn't know what to do. Derek gave me nonstop mixed feelings and I just met Isaac. I'm obviously staying out of relationships for a while, but what about when I do want to get back into one? Derek will start to spread rumors to any new boy I give my attention to.

As for Isaac, he's in Derek's pack and I don't know how i'd be able to even talk to him if he obeys Derek 25/8. And if he finds out about Derek and I kissing, I just know he won't let it go. It was hypocritical of me to kiss Derek and I know that.

I kept thinking about it all as I was driving to the main place the girls and I would hang out at, at least I was thinking until my phone started to buzz, it was Isaac calling me. I pulled into the driveway of our hangout and saw at least 10 messages from Isaac.

I just left the school, what's the worse that could happen in the matter of 10 minutes?