One last time(book 1)✅

15

Without even knowing I make myself; I treated Jungkook the same way I just preach against.

"Alright I'll say sorr- Where you going?"

I rush outside seeking for fresh oxygen to fill my lungs to help the strangling feeling in my throat. I'm out here spending nice time with friends, destroying someone so important to me, emotionally with my ridiculous theory and uncalled for words! No one more awful than me.

My eyes shifts to one of the streetscape benches.

I wonder whether I entered another world as everything around me totally disappears, literally. All I can see is Jungkook's figure crouching on one of the benches.

Without a second thought my legs drag me towards him.

"Jungkook" He stays quiet not lifting his head between his knees.

"Why are you here?" His voice barely audible.

"I, I'm.. I wanted to.."

"Didn't you say I'm unlucky and I should stay as far I can from you?"

He finally shows his face. His expression figuratively rips heart out of my chest.

"I'm not trying to get you killed. If I bring you trouble, I decided to look after you from a distance, to keep my words of course. I'm not here to embarrass myself. You should go."

"Don't say that please.." I stand interlocking my hands occasionally biting the corner of my lip out of habit.

"You still think I'm unlucky for you?" He unearths the moment I buried in the pit of collection of all my undignified memories.

"I'm not going to give any justification. I know nothing can excuse my behaviour. Neither do I expect you to just forget everything and forgive me. I just.. I just wanted to let you know that I'm sorry." I put my heartfelt apology in front of him with no expectations because they hurt.

"I'm not the type to hold grudges, you know," He shifts to the end leaving space for me to sit. "It's just I'm.. I'm very disappointed. Disappointed for not being able to do a better job. Maybe you're right.." I cut him off not letting him continue his untrue statements.

"No, no. If it wasn't for you, I'd not be standing my ground right now in blood and flesh." I breathe out preparing myself to go all out on establishing my words in place of glue to reattach the pieces of his heart I shattered.

"Jungkook, I'm not perfect, nobody is. I hate hurting people, most importantly, you, and I'm very sorry for that. It was very stupid of me, I never intended to make you feel bad in anyway. I just wanted you to stop saving my life in exchange of yours."

He sighs still not sparing a single glance at me. "You're making it about yourself when it's not." Unable to look away from him feeling the ache in my chest, but this is the least I deserve for being an imbecile.

"I'm, tsk.. I mean yeah it's definitely about you but you don't need to worry about me so much."

The more he speaks, the louder grows the thumping of my heart. I can't imagine what he went through the day I burdened him with those obnoxious sentences.

"I'm sorry. Crap comes out of my mouth when I think too hard before saying something. You're just not so easy anymore to talk to like before."

"Like before?" I get no response as I catch sight of Jungkook's surprised face.

I shriek as someone yanks my arm sticking a cold material to my temple, which I figured is a gun after couple of seconds.

At this point, near death experiences and I are soulmates. We find each other somehow.

"Hurt her and I would make you watch your soul leaving your body," One of them sneers at Jungkook and begins "Looks like you didn't recognise us." He says rolling his sleeves up, putting the snake tattoo, I saw on Namjoon, on view.

"The attacks weren't on you, they were for me.." Jungkook mutters, loud enough for me to hear.

"Take her to the car, I'll finish him up. Carlisle gonna be so pleased with me."

"Why are you so obsessed with us?! Let him go!" I shrill on top of my lungs causing some annoyance on his face.

"You're so loud," He grabs me by my hair "How about we make you watch your friend get killed."