A Gloomy April

Chapter 2: Tears of Joy

"I love you." Woohyun looked into my eyes sincerely and I felt my heart flutter.

"Ew...I hate you. Get away from me...Don't hold onto me. I'm going abroad to study." I responded with disgust and turned my back from him.

"CUT~~~!!! That was great, Tina!" The director looked astonished by my acting skills. I was even a little taken aback by how I had acted. It was perfect for my role. Woohyun was the male lead in this drama and he was supposed to be head over heels in love with me. I was supposed to be a mean girl that does not appreciate him and then he ends up dating my best friend when I go abroad. All in all, I do not get the guy and I will be heartbroken at the end.

I thanked everyone for their hard work and bowed before hurrying off the set. While I was getting my purse from the makeup room, Woohyun walked in. I bowed to him and he gave me a tight smile in response. I did not think much of it and asked him for his phone number just because of our fellow actor-actress relationship. He obliged and I felt extremely lucky. I had worried that he would reject me.

When Lee Manager and I were in the car driving to my dorm, I texted Woohyun and then held my breath waiting for a response.

"Hello Woohyun Sunbaenim. This is Tina. You did a great job today."

"Thank you. You too." I quickly thought that it was unnecessary for him to say "you too" and that he must have some interest in me. I almost squealed like the secret fangirl I was right in front of Lee Manager. A busy person like Woohyun probably did not have any time to type four extra characters in Korean.

I gathered all my courage and typed, "Thank you. So do you like any sports?"

He responded immediately, "Yes, I like basketball, baseball, and soccer. What about you?"

Omo! He asked me a question! He was definitely trying to make conversation with me! I just couldn't contain my excitement. I responded with a few teams I liked and then asked him which teams he liked. I kept asking him different questions such as his favorite color, favorite food, and to be honest, I only realized after that it sounded really awkward. I was like an interviewer. After I asked him what his favorite movie was, he did not respond. I felt heartbroken. I knew it was silly to feel like this, but I just could not help it.

Lee Manager and I finally arrived at the dorms where all my fellow entertainers were living for most of the year; unless they were visiting their family or they had decided that they wanted to pay for their own living quarters. The building looked normal and had ten floors. We passed through security and then went up to the sixth floor. I was lucky to have my own room although it was sparse and very tiny. I knew that one girl group had to share an apartment and even though it was bigger, it was difficult to share one bathroom, especially if there were five or six girls.

My room had a dresser about three feet wide and three feet tall in the corner, a mattress with plain pink bedding next to it, a kitchen closet to the side which hid a stove and mini-fridge, and there was a tiny bathroom. The entire place was probably 10x12 feet. Lee Manager had an almost identical room right next door to mine, but he had a wife and two kids so he would not sleep there unless we had something major going on. I thanked him for everything and then he left me all alone.

I had only brought one black suitcase and my purse so it was very easy to unpack. In my suitcase, I had one bath towel, one face towel, a bar of soap, toothbrush, toothpaste, sneakers because I was currently wearing my boots, five pairs of underwear, five bras, five shirts, two pairs of jeans, leggings, workout suit, ten pairs of socks, and a comfy sweatshirt. My purse just had makeup, my wallet, cellphone and gum. I guess you can say I am a pretty light packer. I am neither a fashionista nor a diva.

After taking a quick five minute shower, it was almost midnight so I jumped into my bed and fell asleep. I awoke to the sound of Lee Manager banging on my door to wake up. I hurried out of bed to open the door for him.

"Thanks Sleeping Beauty. It is already six o'clock and we need to be at KBS Studios by seven so just brush your teeth and then we can go."

I nodded my head and did as I was told a bit groggily.

This time we were not so lucky with traffic so I understood why we had to leave half an hour earlier and we got there just in time. Lee Manager told me that I would only have this crazy schedule for two more weeks and then I would be done, but the main characters had to do this for another month. I felt grateful, but I also wished that I could be a main character soon.

I got my makeup done and then received a message from Woohyun. He had responded with his favorite movie! I was filled with joy and quickly responded. I asked him if he wanted to hang out some time, but he did not respond and so I asked him in person when I saw him before filming. He brushed me off and I realized that he had absolutely no interest in me. I had blown everything up out of proportion and I was so embarrassed for being the clingy girl that I hated. I knew I was pretty, but I always liked guys that did not like me back. There were enough guys that liked me already, but my mood was dampened.

We filmed a lovey-dovey scene where we were listening to music together with one set of earbuds, but I was not really feeling it. We had to repeat the scene three times until it was to the director's liking. We also had to film lots of other cute scenes such as one where I had prepared him lunchbox and in another we had exchanged gifts for the holidays. But I did not like Woohyun anymore and it was difficult. He did not like me and yet he pretended to very well.

After filming all day long, I was finally able to go home and rest. When I went to bed, it was almost midnight again. I had the same exact schedule for the next three days and then I had to do a scene at night so I pulled an all-nighter. It was really exhausting, but I had so much fun acting and getting made up beautifully.

The next day I was off and it was an amazing feeling. Lee Manager called me to the first floor to celebrate so I agreed. All of my fellow entertainers were gathered to watch some drama on the television. The opening had a really catchy song and after seeing the main characters, I saw myself! It was really me! Tina Yun! I could not believe it! The producers had already created the first episode and it was broadcasting all over South Korea! That night I cried tears of joy while watching and all the others playfully teased me for being a crybaby, but I did not mind. It was the happiest I felt in a very long time.