A Gloomy April

Chapter 7: Predator and Prey

[Author's Note: Never victim blame. NEVERRR]

I knew that what Taecyeon did was 100% wrong and I was not okay with it, but we had already been together for three years and he had never hurt me before. I decided to forgive him after he apologized, but the next day he did not apologize. In fact, I did not even receive a single text or call. After the photoshoot and reading lines over with Woohyun for the drama, I purposely avoided Woohyun and made sure to take a roundabout way everywhere, even to the bathroom.

Since Taecyeon did not text or call me, I figured that he was just really busy, but then I saw his car when I was leaving the studio. We drove in silence for about ten minutes before he drove into the empty parking lot of an unfamiliar store. Then he jumped onto me and began fervently kissing me. I was taken by surprise and recoiled, but he just continued. I was beginning to feel anxious and I was extremely uncomfortable. He wanted to do it, but I was not ready. When he momentarily lifted his face from mine to unbutton my pants, I whispered no. He ignored me and continued. Because I was not ready, it hurt like hell and I almost cried out in pain. My eyes teared up, but I did not want him to think I was a baby so I refrained from crying.

I felt heartbroken and disrespected and empty inside all at once. He did not notice and just kept telling me that I was so beautiful. Then he whispered "I love you" and I felt like everything was okay. Maybe I had just overreacted because I did unnecessarily let Woohyun kiss me and it could be likened to cheating. Taec had given me his whole heart and I felt like I should do the same. I felt like I had betrayed him. I felt like I was in the wrong.

After he drove me to my place, he kissed me on my forehead and then drove off without looking back to see me wave like he used to. It was a bit disappointing, but I knew he must be exhausted from his own schedule. I hated being clingy. I did not want to be clingy. I did not understand why I was like this.

That night I had a dream about running away from something or someone. It was absolutely terrible and I woke up in a cold sweat. The only thing I remembered was that I was the prey and the thing chasing me was a predator.