(✔️) A Journey to Find a Home | Bang Chan

Second Chance

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After several months of preparation, Stray Kids finally made their comeback. They were promoted for a month, but as expected, their promotion could be called a 'failure'.

Many fans regretted that their songs and performances were not as good as usual, many of them even speculated that there was an internal conflict towards the end of their contract.

Their song reached very low ratings in the charts. Their title song didn't get a win in the music program. Their album also didn't sell as much as usual.

Who wanted to be blamed for their failed comeback?

"You all didn't practice seriously, the choreo had even been made easy!" Minho, the main dancer shouted, annoyed to remember the members who were playing a lot at that time.

"Not because of the choreo, idiot! It was because of all of your untrained voices! You're all unstable when performing live, just read all the comments from the public!" This time it was Seungmin who let out his voice.

Everyone blamed each other. Tension filled the room, trying to keep each other from exploding and ending in a physical fight.

"You also dated too much, Chan hyung. Rena noona seems to divert your world until you are not responsible of your work. She's such a bad influence on you that you can't concentrate on composing songs and practicing-"

"YES, IT'S MY FAULT, OKAY?? It's all my fault, you're right, Changbin,

But not because of Rena- it's because of-"

"Let's talk, hyung. Just two of us."

Chan nodded, then followed Changbin out of the practice room. Changbin continued to walk towards the elevator then stopped at the rooftop. He continued walking until the barrier wall and leant his back there.

The sun that was about to set was shining brightly on their faces. Changbin stared at Chan's face which looked increasingly empty. Even the sun's rays couldn't make his face shine again like before.

Maybe he had his own sun,

who had gone somewhere.

"It's there something you want to tell me, hyung? I know you're not okay."

Chan took a deep breath, a painful smile etched on his face. It's been eight months since the last time he saw you, and in those eight months he had lost himself. He wanted to get it all out, but the words caught in his throat.

He couldn't, 

He didn't deserve to say your name.

"Okay, then you can just listen to me.

Hyung, you're a human, wavering and doubting are natural for us to feel. We sometimes get lost and don't know the difference between a home and a hotel. 

We are seduced by the hotel which is beautiful and provides luxuries.

But the hotel is only temporary, because it can't provide everything we need. It doesn't have warmth.

Only home can provide everything, especially warmth.

Rena is just a hotel, but not a home. You and Y/n both want a home. You always get lost, while y/n is always driven out from her unfit home.

Hyung, if a home feels very comfortable, no matter how good the hotel you stay at,

You will always want to go home."