Words Across My Mind

My Dearest

My Dearest,

This is a letter for me officially to bid goodbye and great wishes to you once again. I knew after the moment you sealed a kiss with your bride, it's time for me to let go of our history beautifully.

I was expecting I would cry my eyeballs out to watch the scene right in front of me. But, surprisingly I didn't. The moment you smile was the greatest smile which I have never seen for years and I knew you found your happiness. I was truly blessed for you.

I will let it go, but I will always remember our history like the best story I have read in my life.

Perhaps goodbye is the hardest thing in life, but eventually, I had to let go for not letting us hurt each other.

Somehow, I will never forget our first eyes locking, sharing our affection, loves, jokes, heart-to-heart sharing, and last our painful goodbye.

That night I cried because I was heartbroken to see the pain in your eyes and I knew how much I kissed away your tears will never kiss away your pain.

At that moment, my heart stubbornly told me to pull you into my arms to heal the pain you get, but my mind was telling me that I was hurting you if I were being stubborn to keep you in me.

After my heart and mind debating, my mind won over my heart. I tore my heart into pieces for letting you go.

I didn't mean to ghost you for years after we bid our goodbye. It took me years to get a life for myself. I had been trying to not hear anything from you for avoiding myself to run into you and begging you to come back to me.

Finally, I took my gut to look into your social media. At that moment, when I saw you posted a picture that you were smiling and showing your delicate hand with a silver band and a rock on one of your fingers, my tears involuntarily streamed from my eyes and I was smiling at the same time too.

I knew I should give a wish for you. Gratefully, you didn't bitching me out for ghosting you for years. Instead, I was glad you invited me to your wedding for me to witness your new life in happiness.

If you want an honest answer from me about you. I'll not find any new love for me because I'll always love you, and you already inked in my heart permanently.

Don't get me wrong, I'll always love you but I'll never want you to give up everything you're having now because of me. I just want you to know I've got your back.

We couldn't happily forever, but I'll always be your best soulmate.

Love,

Your Soulmate