Our Lady Of Sorrows

Tell Me I'm An Angel, Take This To My Grave

Song Of The Chapter: House Of Wolves, My Chemical Romance.

I have been here for two days now. nothing has really happened. Both Jimmys just walk me around the place, introducing me to a shit ton of stuck up big-wigs and their annoying family's.

I've been ignoring Zack sense I got here. he is my brother and I love him. . . But, he left me. our parents were terrible people and he left me with them, knowing that I wouldn't be able to cope with it.
I think he is mad that I tried to commit suicide though. he should have known that this would lead to it. right about now, I wish I was dead. I wish Gerard would have just sunk his teeth in and drained me completely that night.

Speaking of Gerard, he has been acting vary strange. I know he's hiding something from everyone else, but mainly hiding it from me. I know sooner or later I am going to find out. I know for a fact that it has something to do with that weird tugging feeling in my chest. every time we are around each other it happens to both of us. I can tell because he's always clutching his chest and his eyes slightly turn green. I am not sure what it means, but it can't be good.

I've grown pretty close to Lyndsey. well, she prefers that I call her Lyn, but, she's my best friend here. She understands people really easily. it's like she can just go into their mind and figure out everything there is to know about that person/Vampire. I'm really happy to call her my friend.

Everyone here has these weird code names. Zack and I are known as Revenge and Vengeance. to separate both Jimmys, we call them The Fuck Machine and The REV. Gerard on the other hand, is too privet to do anything like that.

Everyone is in bed right now. It's around noon I think. I thought I would sneak out and have a nice long walk outside. I reach the entrance and try to think of the code Bert gave me. the only way for Vampires to get in and out is through this door, but, it has a password so no living thing can get in or out.

"And as always, innocent like roller costars. Fatality is like ghosts in show and you have no idea what you're up against because I've seen what they look like. Becoming perfect as if they were sterling silver chainsaws going, cascading like ghosts in snow."

The stone door slides itself open and I step out. I realize that the door is located in Cemetery Drive. go figure.
It does however, make sense. I remember the feeling that I was being watched whenever I came this side of the cemetery. it's a vary cool part though. the door is kind of like the one from the movie "Don't Be Afraid Of The Dark"; A really beautiful tree pattern with vines going up the border. the only difference is that you can't really tell that this is a door unless you go through it.
The door is right where the old Chapel used to be. The chapel was here before this became a town. they say that this is where the 'Infection' (as most people call it) started, witch now I also believe is true, but I can't be positive, even other Vampires don't know for sure how it happened.
The chapel now has a rotting tree grown over the top of it. It's what I found most intriguing thing about the cemetery.

I walk down the lonely sidewalk, pulling my black and red checkered hoodie over my head. I can't afford anyone recognizing me.
Nothing about Monroeville seemed to change. there is still the same dark clothed crack-heads walking the streets, the same small children who have lost the behind their eyes, the same druggy harlots trying to seduce every hungry spirit that walks by, Everything I hate about this hellhole.

I slowly pass the church and see that there is a funeral going on. I think nothing of it until I see Mikey running out, crying. He falls to his knees, resting his back against a moldy tree trunk.
"I can't do this, I can't do this, I CAN'T FUCKING DO THIS." He chants over and over again. "first my brother.. and... n-now my best friend.. why did they have to leave? Why?" I feel hot bloody tears start to weld up in my eyes. I left him just like Zack left me. . . I'm a piece of shit.
I want to hug Mikey so bad but I I know if I do, I'll be violating the rules and most likely be executed by the Vampire Community. most people don't believe that I am 'the one' so they would have no problem with exterminating me. to be honest, I think most of them want me dead.

Mikey's mother, Donna, walks out and hugs him, whispering reassuring things. I have always liked Donna. she was always really understanding and sweet, she also protected her family with her life. she is also the most sassiest woman I have ever met in my life.
Mikey just shakes his head at her attempt to comfort him. I have seen Mikey cry a lot in my life, but never like this. his slim face was glowing bright red and looked vary swollen, his normally straight as a pin muddy brown hair was now all sweaty and tangled around his ears. the worse part was his eyes. the once dark hazel orbs that made everyone's day just by looking at them, were now dull and lifeless. I wish I could take his pain away. I was foolish to think that suicide was the best way for everyone.

Mikey cares and I let him down. . .

After awhile Donna settles him down and they go back inside. I just stand there, thinking about how I could have changed everything. I don't know how long I stand there, but long enough to where it starts getting dark. I begin to walk back to the mansion when something catches my eye.

My parents.

I watch them leave the church with distraught looks on their faces. "why would she do this?" My mother asks my father with pure hatred in her voice.
"Because she was weak. she couldn't stand the fact that her precious brother died, and grew herself away to those bloodsuckers." my father interjects.
How could they say this about they're children? I have never felt so unloved in my life...

I start to feel a warm, thick substance running down my face. I touch my face and see that's it's blood. I had completely forgotten that we can't cry actual tears anymore. my mother and father walk away, cussing to themselves. For some reason I feel like I'm being watched. I start to quickly walk back to Cemetery Drive. the closer I get, the stronger the feeling gets. someone taps my shoulder from behind and I take a run for it. my speed picks up more and more with each step, soon it gets faster than a car. I guess this is the good thing about being inhuman.

I reach the Cemetery and break down by the mansion door. I really am worthless. I'm nothing special at all. all I am, is a random, suicidal girl that has been thrown into a group of Vampires against her will. I cant save people. hell, I can't even save myself. why did they pick me out of everyone in Monroeville? I can't do this. I'm too weak.

"Why are you crying?" I hear a small voice behind me.

I turn around and see a little girl, no older that six. she has beautiful golden blond hair that cascades down her back, with bright green eyes that have touches of blue in the sunlight. she's wearing an all pink shirt with a red and green plaided skirt. kinda like that one Lyndsey wears. She is human, but she doesn't seem to be affected by the blood running down my face, instead, she whips them away with her little fingers.

"I'm fine.." I mumble.
"You know, when someone says that, they really aren't fine." She sits down next to me, cocking her head so she's looking up at me.
"I'm okay."
She looks at me with disbelief but says nothing.
"What your name?" I ask.
"My name is Angel Sullivan! I'm Jimmy's little sister!" She jumps up happily. I hold out my hand, "it's nice to meet you, Angel Sullivan. my name is Reven Baker." I smile, shaking her hand.
"Do you live in the mansion?" She asks.
"Yes, I do. do you?" She nods her head really fast. "why are you human?" She looks down, dropping her smile.
"Jimmy got taken to the mansion a few years ago. I was left with my family because 'it was the only way'. But then one night these dogs got my mommy and daddy. Jim Jam saved me before they could get me. he told me that mommy and daddy went to heaven and are still watching me, even though I can't see them. Jimmy took me here and said that when I'm old enough, he's going to turn me." she looks up to the sky while kick her legs on the bench we're string on.
"I miss mommy and daddy..."
I can't help but to hug her. she is so innocent. she does not deserve this.
She hugs back and then jumps off the bench. "do you want to be my friend? I don't have any." she asks.
"Sure."
"Yay!" She grabs my arm and pulls me back into the mansion.

I guess I do have someone.

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Sorry about the crappy, depressing chapter. how do you like Angel? I have a lot planned for her. and also, who do you think was chasing Reven and why?

Idk. I like asking questions that I already know the answer to. hehe

*******the pic is the mansion door********
Later MY BEAUTIFUL PEANUT PEASANTS

___Kat Gates