The Alphas therapist

Assateague State Park

My alarm clock beeps loudly indicating that it is six am, making me groan as I hit snooze and flip over for a few more minutes of sleep. It goes off again and I finally turn it off sitting upright in bed and rethinking my plans for today so I can sleep instead. But I finally force myself out of my warm covers and zombie walk to the small coffee machine to make me a cup before walking to the bathroom.

I do my business and then brush my teeth, comb my hair and style it in a pretty fish tail braid down my back. I decide on only mascara today and rub moisturizer on my face, still not being fully awake. I sip lightly on my coffee and get dressed in a pair of high waisted boot cut denim jeans and a black turtle neck long sleeve shirt with a dark grey vest and black boots.

I throw in some snacks from mini fridge in my large purse with a few waters and decide on taking it with me, knowing me I will get hungry.

Once I'm ready I call a cab and gather my purse and walk out the door and into the lobby.

The cab pulls up and I jump inside and tell the man where to take me. He's nice but a bit too nice as he talks my ear off the whole ride. I simply nod or grunt letting him know I'm listening which I'm really not as I stare out the window at the view. It's absolutely breathtaking. Every corner we take its beautiful.

We soon make it to the island and he drops me off near a gated area near a parking lot for the beach. But it's relatively empty and that's makes me feel better. I'd much rather be alone.

I'm not really a people person and I can come off rude to many people but I don't ever mean to be most of the time.

I thank the driver and pay him as I make my way through the lot. I take off my boots and stuff my socks inside and hold them in my arm as I trudge through the soft white sand. I look off in the distance as I see animals, like pigs and horses on the sand and I my mouth breaks out in a huge grin. I love animals, more than I love people.

I did read about them being on the island but I didn't think I would end up seeing any.

I make my way over to a group of horses and slowly approach since they are mostly wild. But sure enough they approach me and I relax, petting a beautifully spotted black and white one on the nose. I pull out my phone and begin taking as many photos as I can.

I walk along the beach feeling the squishiness of the sand in between my toes and the cold icy water splash against my ankles. The smell of the ocean puts me at ease, Ive always loved the ocean.

I take time walking by and start collecting seashells and eventually find myself siting in the sand and staring out at the ocean. Feeling a strong calling for me but not knowing what it is yet.

I hear laughter in the distance and a couple is hand in hand and laughing at each other. They make their way past me and I can't help but stare and be a bit envious of their love. I let out a small huff as my heart tugs at the foreign feeling. But my conscious reminds me that love isn't real.

It's a moment, just a moment in time where things may feel right, where you are happy but soon it goes away. Soon the other person leaves or gets bored and you're left there broken. So there isn't a point and it's all stupid. Just a thing in life people think they have to do to complete another step. Go to school, college, fall in love get married and then have babies. It's bullshit.

And the happiness never lasts. "Nothing good lasts forever"

So what's the point in a temporary happiness and especially when that happiness depends on that other person.

I have seen mates in my pack when I was really little but it all seemed dumb to me and not real. I don't know if I really believe much in the moon goddess. I should decide my own fate not the women in the sky. I think with a scowl as I look up. Yeah you!

I have heard all about it the obsession, protectiveness, the tingles and love that is so overwhelming. The mark, the scent, becoming one, etc.

I don't believe it. I huff again as I lie back into the sand and stare at the blue sky covered in clouds and smile as I try to make out animals in the different shapes.

I dig through my purse and pull out some peanuts and candy with a water and begin to snack.

After a few hours on the island I pull out my phone to call a cab and make my way back to the parking lot feeling successful about today's journey. I reach the cab just in time and get inside suddenly feeling very exhausted. I decide to close my eyes and take a nap on the way back to the hotel.

I feel the car make a sudden stop and open my eyes to reveal the entrance of the hotel, I pay the driver and slip out making my way back to my room and strip out of my clothes and into the hot shower.

Once I got out I decided on putting on my pjs and ordering food service to my room. I put on a comedy movie and a few minutes into it the door knocks indicating my arrival of yummy food, god I'm starving.

I smile at the delivery boy and leave him a small tip before jumping into bed with my meal safely wrapped up.

I got a sandwich and a side salad and started on my food right away. Humming at the delicious flavors. Once I finished I turned off the tv and set my alarm to wake me up for my interview at eight am, allowing me a few hours to get ready for my interview at eleven.

No thoughts cross my mind tonight because my body is exhausted, I quickly drift off into a deep sleep.